1. My adorable dog
2. Video editing
3. Choosing to live from a place of love
4. Creativity and talent
5. Asking for help
6. Responsibility
7. My body and that it is made of Light
8. Endless possibilities in every moment
9. Chanting
10. Silence
I forgot about abundance. When I do that I tend to get angry to cover up my fear of lack, of not having enough, of not being enough. The world and everything in it is abundant. Abundant opportunities. If somebody is making the same product as you, there IS enough to go around. the other guy is NOT stealing your customers. Abundant support from the earth, food, shelter, clothing, and there is an abundance of technology right now. Maybe that's why we abundantly post and tweet and email because we all feel that there is not enough for us, so we found something that is virtually unlimited and we pour it on to feel overwhelmed. I am simply remembering to come from a place of love and trust within me for all I do today.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
2-28-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My body, all of my body
4. Choosing to live from a place of love and abundance
5. Feeling the world is a part of me and I'm a part of it
6. Having a team at work
7. Creative freedom and my job
8. Responsibility for my choices and feelings
9. Water
10. Unconditional love
Interesting what space can accomplish. Yesterday I was angry and feeling hurt. I was feeling alone. I was feeling apart from the world. Today I know I am a part of the world. It is my choice to be apart from, or a part of. I was angry yesterday because I wanted to feel like I was part of a team, a team that was meant to be together and everything worked out because of all the members of the team were doing their part to the best of their ability. And I wanted to be the leader, the director. Today I know I am a part of that team and the team is the world. Everybody in it and everything that happens. I surrender leadership and I know I am Divinely guided. God is the director for this epic full-sensory movie that is the earth.
Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. My body, all of my body
4. Choosing to live from a place of love and abundance
5. Feeling the world is a part of me and I'm a part of it
6. Having a team at work
7. Creative freedom and my job
8. Responsibility for my choices and feelings
9. Water
10. Unconditional love
Interesting what space can accomplish. Yesterday I was angry and feeling hurt. I was feeling alone. I was feeling apart from the world. Today I know I am a part of the world. It is my choice to be apart from, or a part of. I was angry yesterday because I wanted to feel like I was part of a team, a team that was meant to be together and everything worked out because of all the members of the team were doing their part to the best of their ability. And I wanted to be the leader, the director. Today I know I am a part of that team and the team is the world. Everybody in it and everything that happens. I surrender leadership and I know I am Divinely guided. God is the director for this epic full-sensory movie that is the earth.
Love and Light.
Monday, February 27, 2012
2-27-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Dreams
3. Love and Light
4. Music and Chanting
6. Sacredness
7. My car running well
8. My wonderful creative job
9. Living from my center, a new way of being
10. Unconditional Love
I watched the Oscars last night. The only award show I watch anymore. I used to be sure that I watched every single movie that was nominated before the show. For some reason, I haven't made the time nor the money to do that. I love movies. I realized last night that what draws us to the movie, or maybe what is similar in all movies regardless of genre is pain and hurt. Even comedies have pain and hurt in them so that we can laugh at it. Pain and hurt is being human and it is interesting that our culture has developed to teach us all to deny that pain and hurt in ourselves. I learned very well. I was taught that nobody wants to hear about it, that I'm weak to show that I've been hurt. And yet, showing our hurt to others, being vulnerable, is the true way to connect, to find that compassion within ourselves and others. All of this hurt and pain needs to be acknowledged and expressed and released. And we go to the movies for the vicarious illusion that someone has witnessed our hurt and pain. Movies are great, have the movie touch your wound and after the movie, find a trusted friend, or a stranger with gentle eyes and express your wound that it touched. Allow some air to your hurt and allow it to heal.
Love and Light.
2. Dreams
3. Love and Light
4. Music and Chanting
6. Sacredness
7. My car running well
8. My wonderful creative job
9. Living from my center, a new way of being
10. Unconditional Love
I watched the Oscars last night. The only award show I watch anymore. I used to be sure that I watched every single movie that was nominated before the show. For some reason, I haven't made the time nor the money to do that. I love movies. I realized last night that what draws us to the movie, or maybe what is similar in all movies regardless of genre is pain and hurt. Even comedies have pain and hurt in them so that we can laugh at it. Pain and hurt is being human and it is interesting that our culture has developed to teach us all to deny that pain and hurt in ourselves. I learned very well. I was taught that nobody wants to hear about it, that I'm weak to show that I've been hurt. And yet, showing our hurt to others, being vulnerable, is the true way to connect, to find that compassion within ourselves and others. All of this hurt and pain needs to be acknowledged and expressed and released. And we go to the movies for the vicarious illusion that someone has witnessed our hurt and pain. Movies are great, have the movie touch your wound and after the movie, find a trusted friend, or a stranger with gentle eyes and express your wound that it touched. Allow some air to your hurt and allow it to heal.
Love and Light.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
2-26-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Quakers
4. Silence
5. My inner teacher, inner guide, connected to that which is god in whatever name
6. Honoring and expressing my emotions
7. Sacredness
8. Living from my center
9. Time
10. Choices and responsibility
I'm excited today. My Quakers are having our annual tri-county picnic where we invite the Palm Beach and Miami Quakers to a park and have Meeting and potluck and Worship Sharing. I thoroughly enjoy and love my Quakers and Quaker Process. The more I learn about them, the more I believe and strengthens my spiritual connection. While meditating this morning, I learned that all is sacred, not just our souls, not just the centers of us, all in this life is sacred. It's all one.
Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Quakers
4. Silence
5. My inner teacher, inner guide, connected to that which is god in whatever name
6. Honoring and expressing my emotions
7. Sacredness
8. Living from my center
9. Time
10. Choices and responsibility
I'm excited today. My Quakers are having our annual tri-county picnic where we invite the Palm Beach and Miami Quakers to a park and have Meeting and potluck and Worship Sharing. I thoroughly enjoy and love my Quakers and Quaker Process. The more I learn about them, the more I believe and strengthens my spiritual connection. While meditating this morning, I learned that all is sacred, not just our souls, not just the centers of us, all in this life is sacred. It's all one.
Love and Light.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
2-25-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog sleeping on me
2. Spirituality and chores
3. Breathing
4. Relaxing slow day
5. Air conditioning
6. Water
7. All my emotions
8. Unconditional love
9. Finding my center in silence
10. My life
I was reading "The Wisdom Way of Knowing" and the author starts out by saying a bunch of like minded people went on a retreat to practice mystical and ancient ways of Wisdom. And part of their retreat was spiritual tasks like meditation, prayer, chanting, and woven inbetween those were chores, like dishes and chopping firewood and sweeping and dusting. To interleave those is to do chores with a sense of spirituality. I liked that. I have a hard time doing chores around my house. I now do something spiritual before and after doing them and make my chores part of my spirituality. It helps. It also makes me more aware of more emotional triggers, like becoming more and more agitated as I work my budget and finances for the month . . . and I left that chore and watched a movie. I choose to step into my soul and live my life fully. I am safe.
Love and Light.
2. Spirituality and chores
3. Breathing
4. Relaxing slow day
5. Air conditioning
6. Water
7. All my emotions
8. Unconditional love
9. Finding my center in silence
10. My life
I was reading "The Wisdom Way of Knowing" and the author starts out by saying a bunch of like minded people went on a retreat to practice mystical and ancient ways of Wisdom. And part of their retreat was spiritual tasks like meditation, prayer, chanting, and woven inbetween those were chores, like dishes and chopping firewood and sweeping and dusting. To interleave those is to do chores with a sense of spirituality. I liked that. I have a hard time doing chores around my house. I now do something spiritual before and after doing them and make my chores part of my spirituality. It helps. It also makes me more aware of more emotional triggers, like becoming more and more agitated as I work my budget and finances for the month . . . and I left that chore and watched a movie. I choose to step into my soul and live my life fully. I am safe.
Love and Light.
Friday, February 24, 2012
2-24-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Shower
3. Breathing
4. Chanting
5. Meditating, waiting in silence for guidance
6. My car running well
7. Shooting a scene this afternoon
8. Creativity and talent
9. Friday and no plans tonight
10. Unconditional love
I feel like I'm in slow motion. At the end of my process of letting go my abuse, I felt I let go of this lifelong struggle. I spent a lot of energy on keeping that struggle alive, with my release and releif I deserve a rest. I've been wanting to rest since Sunday and I believe I need more of a rest. On the flip side, I have already made a lot of plans and I honor my committments. Rest will come and I'm looking forward to a restful weekend.
Love and Light.
2. Shower
3. Breathing
4. Chanting
5. Meditating, waiting in silence for guidance
6. My car running well
7. Shooting a scene this afternoon
8. Creativity and talent
9. Friday and no plans tonight
10. Unconditional love
I feel like I'm in slow motion. At the end of my process of letting go my abuse, I felt I let go of this lifelong struggle. I spent a lot of energy on keeping that struggle alive, with my release and releif I deserve a rest. I've been wanting to rest since Sunday and I believe I need more of a rest. On the flip side, I have already made a lot of plans and I honor my committments. Rest will come and I'm looking forward to a restful weekend.
Love and Light.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
2-23-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Taking extra time for myself this morning
3. Shooting video today
4. Breathing
5. My car running well
6. Choices and responsibility
7. All my experiences
8. All my emotions
9. Feeling safe within
10. Unconditional love
My list leapt from my fingers today through the keyboard to the screen. Today is a busy day for me. I am shooting a spot and getting in front of the camera for another spot. It will be a fun day. I also have therapy scheduled in the afternoon and my plans for the evening have been cancelled and I am relieved. I need an evening home. I need to purge and simplify and cleanse my home. I need to be home in order to do that. I'm greeting today with openness and expectancy of much experience.
Love and Light.
2. Taking extra time for myself this morning
3. Shooting video today
4. Breathing
5. My car running well
6. Choices and responsibility
7. All my experiences
8. All my emotions
9. Feeling safe within
10. Unconditional love
My list leapt from my fingers today through the keyboard to the screen. Today is a busy day for me. I am shooting a spot and getting in front of the camera for another spot. It will be a fun day. I also have therapy scheduled in the afternoon and my plans for the evening have been cancelled and I am relieved. I need an evening home. I need to purge and simplify and cleanse my home. I need to be home in order to do that. I'm greeting today with openness and expectancy of much experience.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
2-22-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Stillness and silence
4. Sacredness
5. Endless possibilities in every moment
6. All my experiences and all my emotions
7. Guidance and leadings
8. Time and space
9. Water
10. Unconditional Love
Years ago I used to cut myself. I used to believe that the physical pain of cutting myself was the only way to release my emotional pain. It was an illusion, emotional pain was not released, I just matched my outer world with my inner world of pain. One thing I would do that I realize now is that when my cut wound started to heal, I would cut it open again. The same spot. I wanted the wound to stay open. I realize now that that was what I was doing with my internal wounds of my childhood. I would keep them open, sometimes creating the situation where that wound would be ripped open again. There is no evidence and no one to validate that the abuse ever happened. I realized that I believed that my memories could be wiped away by someone else. The only way to keep them was to not have them turn into memories, to keep the wound fresh and alive like it was happening now was the only way. I now know all my experiences happened to me. I cherish and honor my memories. I allow myself to heal and remember them with peace and love. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Stillness and silence
4. Sacredness
5. Endless possibilities in every moment
6. All my experiences and all my emotions
7. Guidance and leadings
8. Time and space
9. Water
10. Unconditional Love
Years ago I used to cut myself. I used to believe that the physical pain of cutting myself was the only way to release my emotional pain. It was an illusion, emotional pain was not released, I just matched my outer world with my inner world of pain. One thing I would do that I realize now is that when my cut wound started to heal, I would cut it open again. The same spot. I wanted the wound to stay open. I realize now that that was what I was doing with my internal wounds of my childhood. I would keep them open, sometimes creating the situation where that wound would be ripped open again. There is no evidence and no one to validate that the abuse ever happened. I realized that I believed that my memories could be wiped away by someone else. The only way to keep them was to not have them turn into memories, to keep the wound fresh and alive like it was happening now was the only way. I now know all my experiences happened to me. I cherish and honor my memories. I allow myself to heal and remember them with peace and love. Love and Light.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
2-21-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My creative job
4. Learning new things
5. Unconditional love
6. Knowing I have a center that I can choose to be in
7. Silence
8. Water
9. The Light in me and everyone and everything
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
So yesterday and over the weekend I was enjoying being in my center and let go of my abuse. I let go of my confusion, doubt, and shame. Today I am feeling naked and vulnerable without it. I feel the urge to start the storm of confusion to rage within me and to make my abuse from my childhood come alive again. I know that is sick and unhealthy and it's what I've known for 40 years. This new way of being, of being in my center of joy of life, of being open to open more of the world to me is healthy and uncomfortable as it is new and scary as I am allowing myself to be vulnerable. It is my choice, I always have choices. I choose to be centered and open and vulnerable and uncomfortable and a little scared today.
Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. My creative job
4. Learning new things
5. Unconditional love
6. Knowing I have a center that I can choose to be in
7. Silence
8. Water
9. The Light in me and everyone and everything
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
So yesterday and over the weekend I was enjoying being in my center and let go of my abuse. I let go of my confusion, doubt, and shame. Today I am feeling naked and vulnerable without it. I feel the urge to start the storm of confusion to rage within me and to make my abuse from my childhood come alive again. I know that is sick and unhealthy and it's what I've known for 40 years. This new way of being, of being in my center of joy of life, of being open to open more of the world to me is healthy and uncomfortable as it is new and scary as I am allowing myself to be vulnerable. It is my choice, I always have choices. I choose to be centered and open and vulnerable and uncomfortable and a little scared today.
Love and Light.
Monday, February 20, 2012
2-20-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Living from my center, my soul
3. My wonderful creative job
4. An HD camera at work to play with
5. Stepping into my new life
6. Music
7. Unconditional love
8. Choices and making decisions
9. Listening and following guidance
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I am stepping into my new life today. Over the weekend (at group therapy) I was able to let go of my attachment to my abuse that happened to me. I was able to let go letting my abuse define me as who I was. Example, "This horrible thing happened to me, therefore I am not able to follow my dreams." I blinded myself from all the possibilities and wonderment in the world by focusing on the abuse. I let that go. I found my center, my soul. The more I open my soul, the more the world opens. This is where my joy and love of everything lives. This is where I choose to live. Now I'm stepping out exploring this new open world. And I feel scared. This is new and newness is uncomfortable. And more steps on my path to my Oneness have been revealed and those steps don't look easy. I am in a new way of being.
Love and Light.
2. Living from my center, my soul
3. My wonderful creative job
4. An HD camera at work to play with
5. Stepping into my new life
6. Music
7. Unconditional love
8. Choices and making decisions
9. Listening and following guidance
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I am stepping into my new life today. Over the weekend (at group therapy) I was able to let go of my attachment to my abuse that happened to me. I was able to let go letting my abuse define me as who I was. Example, "This horrible thing happened to me, therefore I am not able to follow my dreams." I blinded myself from all the possibilities and wonderment in the world by focusing on the abuse. I let that go. I found my center, my soul. The more I open my soul, the more the world opens. This is where my joy and love of everything lives. This is where I choose to live. Now I'm stepping out exploring this new open world. And I feel scared. This is new and newness is uncomfortable. And more steps on my path to my Oneness have been revealed and those steps don't look easy. I am in a new way of being.
Love and Light.
Friday, February 17, 2012
2-17-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Sleeping well
3. My car running well
4. Breathing
5. Hands and arms and feet and legs and my body
6. The Light
7. Affirmations
8. Seeing clearly
9. Unconditional love
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I woke up this morning with my eyes practically swelled shut. Severe allergies is what the western doctor says. Lowered capacity to move fluids around my body is what my acupuncturist says. I know that 2 days ago I brought up something within me that I really need to look at and I don't want to look at. I see with eyes of Love.
Love and Light.
2. Sleeping well
3. My car running well
4. Breathing
5. Hands and arms and feet and legs and my body
6. The Light
7. Affirmations
8. Seeing clearly
9. Unconditional love
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I woke up this morning with my eyes practically swelled shut. Severe allergies is what the western doctor says. Lowered capacity to move fluids around my body is what my acupuncturist says. I know that 2 days ago I brought up something within me that I really need to look at and I don't want to look at. I see with eyes of Love.
Love and Light.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
2-16-12 grateful for today
1. Listening to my dog snore
2. Breathing
3. My open creative position at work
4. Friends love and support
5. My car running well
6. Music
7. Colors
8. My warm jacket
9. The Light
10. Unconditional love
It took me a while to come up with 10 things to be grateful for today. I'm feeling bad about myself today. I'm feeling undeserving of life and love. I'm grateful I know that unconditional love doesn't check in with me to see if I feel deserving of it, it shines on me anyway. My deserving is whether I have the strength to open up and receive that unconditional love. I am the judge that blocks it from myself. I am the prisoner and the warden. I am the one to give me pardon, to feel compassion for myself. Yesterday I finally admited to myself something that I felt much shame about. I tried for years to bury it, to just let it disappear. I am ashamed, I hurt another, I hurt myself. I need to remember that the beginning of compassion, of forgiveness is atonement = at-one-ment. All of me is more than my shame . . . . it just seems that right now all I am is shame.
Love and Light.
2. Breathing
3. My open creative position at work
4. Friends love and support
5. My car running well
6. Music
7. Colors
8. My warm jacket
9. The Light
10. Unconditional love
It took me a while to come up with 10 things to be grateful for today. I'm feeling bad about myself today. I'm feeling undeserving of life and love. I'm grateful I know that unconditional love doesn't check in with me to see if I feel deserving of it, it shines on me anyway. My deserving is whether I have the strength to open up and receive that unconditional love. I am the judge that blocks it from myself. I am the prisoner and the warden. I am the one to give me pardon, to feel compassion for myself. Yesterday I finally admited to myself something that I felt much shame about. I tried for years to bury it, to just let it disappear. I am ashamed, I hurt another, I hurt myself. I need to remember that the beginning of compassion, of forgiveness is atonement = at-one-ment. All of me is more than my shame . . . . it just seems that right now all I am is shame.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
2-15-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Therapy session today
3. Breathing
4. My wonderful creative job
5. Feeling better and better every minute
6. Clarity and a clear head
7. Abundance
8. Gentle lessons
9. Responsibility
10. Unconditional love
I'm excited to live my life and know that letting things go, releasing things, material things, emotional things, will lighten me to be able to live fully. I am scared to release and go into the world with an open free heart and soul and I know that amazing things are in store. Everything will feel deeper, all emotions will feel deeper. And then doubt creeps and wonders if I really do want to feel everything deeper. If I stay with the blocks around my heart, I get life filtered through my walls, coming in gray and subdued, almost lifeless. I'm ready to face life in full color, to have the color so bright it hurts. I'm scared and ready.
Love and Light.
2. Therapy session today
3. Breathing
4. My wonderful creative job
5. Feeling better and better every minute
6. Clarity and a clear head
7. Abundance
8. Gentle lessons
9. Responsibility
10. Unconditional love
I'm excited to live my life and know that letting things go, releasing things, material things, emotional things, will lighten me to be able to live fully. I am scared to release and go into the world with an open free heart and soul and I know that amazing things are in store. Everything will feel deeper, all emotions will feel deeper. And then doubt creeps and wonders if I really do want to feel everything deeper. If I stay with the blocks around my heart, I get life filtered through my walls, coming in gray and subdued, almost lifeless. I'm ready to face life in full color, to have the color so bright it hurts. I'm scared and ready.
Love and Light.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
2-14-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Being home in the home I created
3. Resting
4. Breathing
5. Plans changing
6. Taking care of myself
7. Feeling healthier hour by hour
8. Responsibility
9. Unconditional love
10. The Light within all
I am back from vacation. I had planned to write out this list everyday while on vacation and I'm sad that I did not follow through with that plan. I like routine, I remember the things I need to do to keep me grounded and centered and grateful. I do like shaking up that routine, which I did with this trip. Every two days I was on a plane. It was good for me to try that out, to experience that at least once. What I found is that I do not like being on a plane every two days, I don't like moving around so much for my vacation. It was very good that I planned it the way that I did, I liked seeing my brother and going to the retreat. I did my best to do my daily practices of chanting, meditating, this list. A couple of times I found myself in bed at night exhausted and I said my list aloud to myself because I was too tired to get pen and paper and write it. I also had a cold for most of my trip. I was able to NOT focus on it and balance taking care of myself with other things I wanted to accomplish for my trip. All in all it was a deepening experience into myself. I am feeling better with every minute that passes.
Love and Light.
2. Being home in the home I created
3. Resting
4. Breathing
5. Plans changing
6. Taking care of myself
7. Feeling healthier hour by hour
8. Responsibility
9. Unconditional love
10. The Light within all
I am back from vacation. I had planned to write out this list everyday while on vacation and I'm sad that I did not follow through with that plan. I like routine, I remember the things I need to do to keep me grounded and centered and grateful. I do like shaking up that routine, which I did with this trip. Every two days I was on a plane. It was good for me to try that out, to experience that at least once. What I found is that I do not like being on a plane every two days, I don't like moving around so much for my vacation. It was very good that I planned it the way that I did, I liked seeing my brother and going to the retreat. I did my best to do my daily practices of chanting, meditating, this list. A couple of times I found myself in bed at night exhausted and I said my list aloud to myself because I was too tired to get pen and paper and write it. I also had a cold for most of my trip. I was able to NOT focus on it and balance taking care of myself with other things I wanted to accomplish for my trip. All in all it was a deepening experience into myself. I am feeling better with every minute that passes.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
2-8-12 grateful for today
1. My brother
2. SNOW!!
3. Vacation day
4. My niece and nephew
5. Staying on the ground all day today
6. Phone conferencing
7. Honoring all emotions of myself and my family
8. Prairie dogs
9. Fire
10. Unconditional Love
I love my brother and his family so much. I have been on an exploration of my emotions and my spirituality and it has led me here hanging out with my brother, bookending my spiritual retreat. There are times when I want to open another person's heart for him. To reach in and pull his emotions up so that he can feel them. I am not the one to do it for for the other person. I am here to support them as he discovers they own emotions and healthy expressions. I am here to love them. I am here to see the Light in them and hold it sacred and precious until they are able to see it themselves. Just as my community of noble friends is doing for me.
Love and Light.
2. SNOW!!
3. Vacation day
4. My niece and nephew
5. Staying on the ground all day today
6. Phone conferencing
7. Honoring all emotions of myself and my family
8. Prairie dogs
9. Fire
10. Unconditional Love
I love my brother and his family so much. I have been on an exploration of my emotions and my spirituality and it has led me here hanging out with my brother, bookending my spiritual retreat. There are times when I want to open another person's heart for him. To reach in and pull his emotions up so that he can feel them. I am not the one to do it for for the other person. I am here to support them as he discovers they own emotions and healthy expressions. I am here to love them. I am here to see the Light in them and hold it sacred and precious until they are able to see it themselves. Just as my community of noble friends is doing for me.
Love and Light.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
2-7-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Starting a new journey today
3. Breathing
4. Airplanes
5. The Light
6. The rain
7. Chanting and music
8. Generosity
9. The internet and cell phone
10. Unconditional love
I was chanting this morning and after I was done I sat in silence and listened to the rain falling. We are made of mostly water/fluids and I let my rain within fall. I felt everything inside me relax and open. I felt the earth relax and open to receive the rain. A perfect start to my new journey. I am flying up to visit my brother and his kids and then continuing on to a Circle of Trust retreat. I am excited to experience this kind of retreat. To create a community dedicated to and honoring each person's soul as their own guide. I am excited and also I'm anxious about flying. It's not about being in the plane up in the air, I think that's cool and fun. I'm anxious about my ears that don't equalize pressure very well, and also about being in a little tube with a lot of people. I need to remember the Light in every person and everything.
Love and Light.
2. Starting a new journey today
3. Breathing
4. Airplanes
5. The Light
6. The rain
7. Chanting and music
8. Generosity
9. The internet and cell phone
10. Unconditional love
I was chanting this morning and after I was done I sat in silence and listened to the rain falling. We are made of mostly water/fluids and I let my rain within fall. I felt everything inside me relax and open. I felt the earth relax and open to receive the rain. A perfect start to my new journey. I am flying up to visit my brother and his kids and then continuing on to a Circle of Trust retreat. I am excited to experience this kind of retreat. To create a community dedicated to and honoring each person's soul as their own guide. I am excited and also I'm anxious about flying. It's not about being in the plane up in the air, I think that's cool and fun. I'm anxious about my ears that don't equalize pressure very well, and also about being in a little tube with a lot of people. I need to remember the Light in every person and everything.
Love and Light.
Monday, February 6, 2012
2-6-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Moxa stick
3. Chanting
4. Music
5. The Light in all people, all things
6. Creativity and talent
7. Abundance
8. Trust and faith
9. My hand and ability to type
10. My family
I chanted this morning and opened my throat and let the music come through me . . . and I sound beautiful. When I think of this, and how beautiful I sound, I lose it. I think too hard. I try to sound beautifu and push my voice and tighten my throat, and I lose the music. This is the struggle of me trying to create. I want the creation to come through me, and I need the tools and skills to let it come out the best and in that, I try to control it. I need to trust the music will come through. I need to trust the words will come. I need to trust I am on my path.
Love and Light.
2. Moxa stick
3. Chanting
4. Music
5. The Light in all people, all things
6. Creativity and talent
7. Abundance
8. Trust and faith
9. My hand and ability to type
10. My family
I chanted this morning and opened my throat and let the music come through me . . . and I sound beautiful. When I think of this, and how beautiful I sound, I lose it. I think too hard. I try to sound beautifu and push my voice and tighten my throat, and I lose the music. This is the struggle of me trying to create. I want the creation to come through me, and I need the tools and skills to let it come out the best and in that, I try to control it. I need to trust the music will come through. I need to trust the words will come. I need to trust I am on my path.
Love and Light.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
2-5-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Washer and dryer in my home
3. Quakers
4. Journal and writing
5. Circles and squares
6. Unconditional love
7. Breathing
8. Relaxation
9. Responsibility
10. Abundance
Now I think of Puppy Bowl to put on my list. I had it on for about 20 minutes and had to shut it off because I started getting a headache from my dog barking at it non-stop. The joy of playing with puppies, there are no rules, no goals, no strategies, no objectives. I roll on the floor and puppies jump and roll on me. I laugh and giggle and their tails wag. Running to each other and away and jumping on each other for the sheer joy of it. At what age do play and games become driven by rules rather than joy? At what point does running around purely for the joy of moving my body become I can run faster than you? Do we naturally do this? Is there a culture that does not have competition in its games or fun? I'm so glad that now for kids teams everybody gets a trophy for playing. Come out and play.
Love and Light.
2. Washer and dryer in my home
3. Quakers
4. Journal and writing
5. Circles and squares
6. Unconditional love
7. Breathing
8. Relaxation
9. Responsibility
10. Abundance
Now I think of Puppy Bowl to put on my list. I had it on for about 20 minutes and had to shut it off because I started getting a headache from my dog barking at it non-stop. The joy of playing with puppies, there are no rules, no goals, no strategies, no objectives. I roll on the floor and puppies jump and roll on me. I laugh and giggle and their tails wag. Running to each other and away and jumping on each other for the sheer joy of it. At what age do play and games become driven by rules rather than joy? At what point does running around purely for the joy of moving my body become I can run faster than you? Do we naturally do this? Is there a culture that does not have competition in its games or fun? I'm so glad that now for kids teams everybody gets a trophy for playing. Come out and play.
Love and Light.
Saturday, February 4, 2012
2-4-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. This blustery day
3. My hammock and warm blanket
4. Tai Chi class
5. Acupuncture
6. Breathing
7. Clothes for laundry
8. Silence
9. Unconditional love
10. Compassion and Friendship
I feel like I belong to my Tai Chi class. I realized today that I feel like I belong because I decided to receive all the other people in my class. I received them into my life, as people that I affect and whom I am affected by. I received them into my heart. I let them belong to me, and now I feel like I belong. I sat for so long wondering when I would feel like I belong to this community and I have all along. I was the one resisting and denying. I am open and loving.
Love and Light.
2. This blustery day
3. My hammock and warm blanket
4. Tai Chi class
5. Acupuncture
6. Breathing
7. Clothes for laundry
8. Silence
9. Unconditional love
10. Compassion and Friendship
I feel like I belong to my Tai Chi class. I realized today that I feel like I belong because I decided to receive all the other people in my class. I received them into my life, as people that I affect and whom I am affected by. I received them into my heart. I let them belong to me, and now I feel like I belong. I sat for so long wondering when I would feel like I belong to this community and I have all along. I was the one resisting and denying. I am open and loving.
Love and Light.
Friday, February 3, 2012
2-3-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful job using my creativity and talents
3. My car running well
4. Plans with a good friend tonight
5. Abundance
6. Responsibility
7. Breathing
8. Being of service
9. Music
10. Honoring all of my feelings
I don't know what to write about today. I'm sitting here waiting for some profound inspiration. I like it when I write my little blurb at the end of my list and I feel like I found some profound insight when I write. Today it's not happening. I do like the idea that my mundane little post today may shine light on the grace of mundane. To notice the tasks and moments that are not profound or life changing, that are just there and although mundane in their rountine and unremarkableness, these moments are important and needed. I know I've overwhelmed myself with profound insights revealed too fast and I am calmed that today will be an easy mundane day filled with the grace of commonplace.
Love and Light.
2. My wonderful job using my creativity and talents
3. My car running well
4. Plans with a good friend tonight
5. Abundance
6. Responsibility
7. Breathing
8. Being of service
9. Music
10. Honoring all of my feelings
I don't know what to write about today. I'm sitting here waiting for some profound inspiration. I like it when I write my little blurb at the end of my list and I feel like I found some profound insight when I write. Today it's not happening. I do like the idea that my mundane little post today may shine light on the grace of mundane. To notice the tasks and moments that are not profound or life changing, that are just there and although mundane in their rountine and unremarkableness, these moments are important and needed. I know I've overwhelmed myself with profound insights revealed too fast and I am calmed that today will be an easy mundane day filled with the grace of commonplace.
Love and Light.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
2-2-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Chanting
3. Sacred space
4. Breathing
5. Water
6. My new seasoned Wok
7. Abundance
8. My car running well
9. An evening home
10. Unconditional Love
Yes, I put my Wok on my list. I cured it and seasoned it, what the chinese call "opening" on Tuesday and this morning I used it this morning and it worked wonderfully. I enjoyed cooking. It seems like chinese stir-fry in a wok is the only time I do enjoy cooking. It's fun. I made an alaskan cod in a lemon-pepper, garlic thing with vegatables and will be eating it for lunch today. I'm looking forward to cooking in it again tonight. I have lots of emotional issues and trauma around food, so this is a big step for me. I don't think I've ever put a food item on my grateful list.
Love and Light.
2. Chanting
3. Sacred space
4. Breathing
5. Water
6. My new seasoned Wok
7. Abundance
8. My car running well
9. An evening home
10. Unconditional Love
Yes, I put my Wok on my list. I cured it and seasoned it, what the chinese call "opening" on Tuesday and this morning I used it this morning and it worked wonderfully. I enjoyed cooking. It seems like chinese stir-fry in a wok is the only time I do enjoy cooking. It's fun. I made an alaskan cod in a lemon-pepper, garlic thing with vegatables and will be eating it for lunch today. I'm looking forward to cooking in it again tonight. I have lots of emotional issues and trauma around food, so this is a big step for me. I don't think I've ever put a food item on my grateful list.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
2-1-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Imagination and creativity
3. An HD camera to play with
4. Responsibility
5. Abundance
6. Chanting
7. Gathering as a community
8. The Light in everything
9. Being of service
10. Being in this present moment
I don't have much to talk about today. I'm looking forward to chanting with my community this evening, being with others in a safe open way helps me to get to the core of me. I almost can feel myself putting my core under layers of protection sometimes. So many people want to be seen and the one thing they do consistantly is hide. I am no longer hiding. I am stepping out and stepping through obstacles. My path is hilly and curvy and I like it that way. It's more interesting that way.
Love and Light.
2. Imagination and creativity
3. An HD camera to play with
4. Responsibility
5. Abundance
6. Chanting
7. Gathering as a community
8. The Light in everything
9. Being of service
10. Being in this present moment
I don't have much to talk about today. I'm looking forward to chanting with my community this evening, being with others in a safe open way helps me to get to the core of me. I almost can feel myself putting my core under layers of protection sometimes. So many people want to be seen and the one thing they do consistantly is hide. I am no longer hiding. I am stepping out and stepping through obstacles. My path is hilly and curvy and I like it that way. It's more interesting that way.
Love and Light.
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