Tuesday, August 27, 2013

8-27-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  My car running well
3.  Clear, honest, direct communication with Love
4.  Unconditional love
5.  My voice
6.  Creativity and talent
7.  Spirit, God, The Light
8.  Every moment
9.  All of my emotions
10.  All of my experiences.

I am doing wonderfully well today.  My heart is full of joy and possibility and openness.  I have learned to be open and vulnerable with safety.  I am safe.  I am loved.  I am love.  Life is amazing today and I will dive into and feel every day.  Love and Light.

Friday, August 23, 2013

8-23-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Friday
3.  Creativity and talent
4.  My car running well
5.  Friends
6.  Unconditional Love
7.  Centering, Grounding, Meditation
8.  Trees, grass, sun, ocean
9.  The Light
10.  Breathing

Much love and light to the world.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

8-21-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Happy Hour
3.  Peacefulness and calmness
4.  Flowing with life
5.  My car running well
6.  Unconditional Love
7.  Ability to type
8.  Creativity and talent
9.  The Light
10.  Safe within myself

Happy Wednesday.  Love and Light.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

8-20-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Therapy session
3.  Friends
4.  Choices
5.  My car running well
6.  My big office space
7.  Freedom
8.  All of my emotions
9.  Unconditional Love
10.  The Light

Today.  Love and Light.

Friday, August 16, 2013

8-16-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Creativity and talent
3.  Unconditional Love and Light
4.  Help with speaking to people
5.  My car running well
6.  Breathing
7.  Letting go
8.  Being of service
9.  Awareness
10.  Choices

This is it for today.  Love and Light.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

8-14-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Creativity and talent
3.  Friends
4.  Sharing
5.  Unconditional Love
6.  The Light
7.  Therapy session
8.  My car running well
9.  Air conditioning
10.  Breathing

Is it okay for me to be grateful for something that I don't have today, but I've had it in the past?  The air conditioning is not working here at my work and it's hot.  Having it not working, I am grateful for it working in the past.  Grateful that it was invented and exists.  Even though when it is working, I'm usually in a jacket here indoors in South Florida in the middle of summer.  Seems pretty silly.  I've done that a lot with my grateful list.  Put things in it that I want to be grateful for, but don't feel grateful for now.  Love and Light.

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

8-13-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Mastermind
3.  Creativity and Talent
4.  The Truth
5.  Choices
6.  Compassion
7.  Unconditional Love
8.  My car running well
9.  Friends
10.  All my emotions

I am currently going through a personal growth step that is hard and emotionally intense.  It is scary.  The odd thing is that I forget this.  I forget that the steps that I'm taking emotionally to resolve a trauma from my past are hard and scary and bring up a lot of emotion.  I'm at work barely getting through my day at work and I'm beating myself up, telling myself that I shouldn't be so upset, that these steps are a good thing.  These steps are a good thing and I incorrectly make that mean that they should be easy.  These are hard and scary and intense steps that I'm taking to resolve a trauma that I have been through.  I'm okay if I have a day that I just get through.  I'm okay if I have no energy at home.  I'm okay if I spend a long time crying and holding myself.  I need to remember that what I am doing emotionally for myself is hard.  Resolving trauma in itself is a transition and transitions are hard and stressful.  I need to remember to be gentle with myself and care and hold myself with compassion.  I am okay.  Love and Light.

Monday, August 12, 2013

8-12-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog

This is as far as I've gotten today.  Love and Light.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

8-8-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Friends Journal
3.  Unconditional Love
4.  Mastermind
5.  The Light
6.  My car running well
7.  Choices
8.  Creativity and talent
9.  My laptop
10.  Nature

I want an iPad.  I'm debating with myself, do I need an iPad?  I like my iPhone and I'm constantly looking for apps to help me get organized, keep track of projects and most on the phone are too small for the screen for me to know what I'm doing.  I love my laptop as it is portable and yet it is not as portable as an iPad would be.  And then I get a lot of coworkers telling me to go with the PC-like tablets as they are less expensive . . . and I know I am a Mac.  I have so much less problems and less tweaking with my Mac/Apple products than other stuff.  And yes, Mac has frustrated and angered me, especially switching from PowerPC to Intel to where I cannot use any of my purchased (expensive) software on my new laptop.  My laptop is heavy, I do like taking my notes and "Brain" with me wherever I go.  I don't take out in places because even though it is small, compact and portable, it still feels clunky.  Will I use the iPad in the same way I use my laptop now?   Love and Light.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

8-7-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  My car running well
3.  Chanting
4.  Friends
5.  My creative fun job
6.  Freedom
7.  Unconditional Love
8.  The Light
9.  Choices
10.  Strength, Power and Courage

I've been complaining recently about not sleeping well, and being way too tired and not getting out of bed when my alarm goes off in the morning.  I've been dragging and just wanting to sleep.  I have not been wanting to admit to myself that my coffee drinking has been way overboard again.  I know when I stopped drinking coffee for 2 years, my sleeping was better and I was much more able to function and get up on time.  I didn't have this extreme grogginess going on.  So I complain about my drinking coffee, my not getting to sleep well, and wanting to stay in bed in the morning, and I have not been changing my coffee habit at all!!!  I tell myself, I need to stop drinking coffee.  I can do it, I did it before, I felt better when I did.  I switched to tea and hot cocoa.  Tea is provided here at work.  I need to drink lots more water.  I see myself thinking these things and my behavior seems completely disconnected from myself.  I am in charge of me.  I am in charge of my behavior.  Only I can change me.  Love and Light.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

8-6-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Breathing
3.  Creativity and talent
4.  Choices
5.  Unconditional Love
6.  My car running well
7.  Freedom
8.  Choices
9.  the Light
10.  Friends

I make commercials.  That is my job, my profession.  Filmmaking and video editing is my passion and right now I'm channeling it into making commercials.  It's a smallish cable TV provider that I work form and my creative team is me and me.  I come up with the concept, write the scripts, gather all the elements (stock footage, music, shoot footage), do any special effects, do the voice over, edit the whole thing and make it look good for broadcast.  I'm a one man band.  I like quality work.  Sometimes I drag my feet when I'm given an assignment like "make a spot for the channel moves coming up" because an informational spot can be so boring.  I need to be okay with myself when I make an "okay" spot.  Not every single spot I make has to push and challenge me to use some new tools or make it a fascinating spot.  It's weird, that when I decide to make an "okay generic" spot and make it very easy and boring, I drag my feet and procrastinate and put it off when the reason I made that decision was so that I could get it done and off my to-do pile fast.  I'm okay with just being okay today.  Love and Light.

Monday, August 5, 2013

8-5-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  My car running well
3.  Sleeping
4.  Choices
5.  Creativity and talent
6.  Breathing
7.  Music
8.  The Light
9.  Meditation
10.  Unconditional Love

I was walking by Customer Service this morning and I caught only one phrase, "I was written up for that."  I have no idea what the person did or even the subject of what they were discussing.  I caught only that one phrase.  I thought that phrase sounded so sad.  And the person that was saying it has been with the company for years and is older than I am and as far as I know, a rock in customer service.  Maybe that's why I thought that phrase sounded even sadder.  The corporate world has become so black and white without any heart in it.  The managers "writing people up" for the infractions themselves and not treating each other as living breathing feeling people.  You give computers a rule and it will follow it, no questions, no sideways, no going around.  People are not like that, they are so much more than a computer.  They are so much more than rules.  People can feel compassion for each other and see the bigger picture, people can have great days and not so good days.  People have heart and need to be treated with love.  Corporations need guidelines and compassionate managers, and put people first.  Money has been such a goal for most business, money is only an object.  I say put people first over profits and your business will be so much more profitable.  Love and Light.

Friday, August 2, 2013

8-2-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  My car running well
3.  Dancing
4.  Creativity and talent
5.  Easy day at work
6.  Flexibility
7.  Unconditional Love
8.  Forgiveness
9.  Choices
10.  Friends

I need a vacation from my vacation.  I went up to Denver for the weekend and I feel like I'm taking longer to recover back into my routine than normal.  I will get back to normal soon.  Love and Light.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

8-1-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Happy Hour
3.  Friends
4.  My car running well
5.  Unconditional love
6.  Choices
7.  Trust and Faith
8.  The Light
9.  Creativity and talent
10.  Breathing

Welcome to August.  Nothing profound today.  I'm glad I woke up and went to work.  I've been very productive last month and today.  Happy Hour tonight which will be fun.  Love and Light.