1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful creative job
3. Breathing
4. Love and Light
5. Community and connection
6. Cool weather
7. Music
8. Listening to my hearts leading
9. This day and all the varying experiences in it
10. Openness
My dog is not feeling well. I woke up this morning and my dog had thrown up on himself and in the bed. I am worried, and he ate all his breakfast this morning. He had not been eating well the last couple of days so I take it as a good sign that he ate all his food this morning. I washed him off and had to go into work today. No more vacation days left. I hold my dog in the light and trust he is okay. I didn't want to wake up this morning and after being at work for 2 hours, I still feel groggy. The weather is nice and cool and I have on a sweatshirt today. A rare occurance for South Florida. I am learning to hold myself in the Light along with all the others I hold.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
11-29-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Music
3. Creativity
4. Love
5. Inner journey
6. Clarity
7. Energy/Chi
8. Cool weather
9. Joy
10. Meditation
I must confess one of my flaws. I watch WAY too much TV. Because I work for a cable provider, I get all the channels free, even the premium movie channels. I made a goal for myself to not watch TV at home for 10 days. If the TV is not on, I complete projects that need to be done at home, like cleaning. Yesterday was supposed to be the start of the 10 days, and it took all of 15 minutes before I told myself that my goal was stupid, that I was weak, and the TV was on. I'm in conflict because video production is what I love to do. I love to make movies. I believe that TV and Movies are a powerful tool. Like any tool, they can be used to the highest good of the world, or to downfall. It's the intention behind the filmmaker . . . and the intention of the viewer. When I spend my time to watch movies so that I can disappear from my own life and feel like I'm living though it is all illusion, that is my downfall. That is when I need to take a break and turn it off. When I have been disappearing from myself, it means that I don't want to see myself at all. If the TV is off, I am forced to spend time with myself . . . and currently I don't like it.
Love and Light.
2. Music
3. Creativity
4. Love
5. Inner journey
6. Clarity
7. Energy/Chi
8. Cool weather
9. Joy
10. Meditation
I must confess one of my flaws. I watch WAY too much TV. Because I work for a cable provider, I get all the channels free, even the premium movie channels. I made a goal for myself to not watch TV at home for 10 days. If the TV is not on, I complete projects that need to be done at home, like cleaning. Yesterday was supposed to be the start of the 10 days, and it took all of 15 minutes before I told myself that my goal was stupid, that I was weak, and the TV was on. I'm in conflict because video production is what I love to do. I love to make movies. I believe that TV and Movies are a powerful tool. Like any tool, they can be used to the highest good of the world, or to downfall. It's the intention behind the filmmaker . . . and the intention of the viewer. When I spend my time to watch movies so that I can disappear from my own life and feel like I'm living though it is all illusion, that is my downfall. That is when I need to take a break and turn it off. When I have been disappearing from myself, it means that I don't want to see myself at all. If the TV is off, I am forced to spend time with myself . . . and currently I don't like it.
Love and Light.
Monday, November 28, 2011
11-28-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. The rain
4. Silence and meditation
5. Chanting
6. Being truly me
7. Holiday fun
8. Christmas music
9. Stories of flawed heroes
10. Unconditional love
I don't believe I have anything interesting or profound to say today. I am grateful for this day and for the abundance of life. What I choose to do and how to be, effects the world, even if I spend the day alone in my apartment.
Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. The rain
4. Silence and meditation
5. Chanting
6. Being truly me
7. Holiday fun
8. Christmas music
9. Stories of flawed heroes
10. Unconditional love
I don't believe I have anything interesting or profound to say today. I am grateful for this day and for the abundance of life. What I choose to do and how to be, effects the world, even if I spend the day alone in my apartment.
Love and Light.
Friday, November 25, 2011
11-25-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My creative job
3. My car running well
4. Unconditional love
5. Good friends
6. Christmas season
7. Cool weather
8. Willingness and openness
9. Breathing
10. Feeling healthier every day
I struggle and resist saying "thank you" to a higher power. For anything. I've been taking small steps spiritually, uncovering and discovering my own spirituality and connectedness to everything. And I feel very grateful for experiences and opportunities to express all my emotions with love and step into that stream of Light that is unconditional love. I reach the point of saying "thank you" and it seems that everything crumbles. I believe that if I say thank you to a higher power then I'm giving up free will. Like I didn't have anything to do with the events that happened. I might as well be a puppet on a string, which is where I shut everything down. So, I'm going back to my baby steps on my spirituality, and back up a bit. I realized that I can thank each thing I am grateful for. I can thank each person directly for being in my life. I can thank the wind for bringing cool weather. I can thank my dog. I can thank each experience and thank my emotions directly. This I can do and this is beautiful and honors the higher power, The Light, The Tao, The Great Spirit, The Greater Magnificence.
Love and Light.
2. My creative job
3. My car running well
4. Unconditional love
5. Good friends
6. Christmas season
7. Cool weather
8. Willingness and openness
9. Breathing
10. Feeling healthier every day
I struggle and resist saying "thank you" to a higher power. For anything. I've been taking small steps spiritually, uncovering and discovering my own spirituality and connectedness to everything. And I feel very grateful for experiences and opportunities to express all my emotions with love and step into that stream of Light that is unconditional love. I reach the point of saying "thank you" and it seems that everything crumbles. I believe that if I say thank you to a higher power then I'm giving up free will. Like I didn't have anything to do with the events that happened. I might as well be a puppet on a string, which is where I shut everything down. So, I'm going back to my baby steps on my spirituality, and back up a bit. I realized that I can thank each thing I am grateful for. I can thank each person directly for being in my life. I can thank the wind for bringing cool weather. I can thank my dog. I can thank each experience and thank my emotions directly. This I can do and this is beautiful and honors the higher power, The Light, The Tao, The Great Spirit, The Greater Magnificence.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
11-23-11 grateful for today
1. Breathing
2. My adorable dog
3. My car running well
4. The gifts that each person brings into my life
5. Music
6. Creativity
7. Acupuncture
8. Feeling and experiencing all my emotions
9. Feeling and experiencing all that's going on in my body
10. The Light
I'm not feeling well today and I'm learning to be grateful for that. Grateful that I am able to feel that my body, my energy is out of balance. A lot of times in my past I would know that I wasn't feeling well, and then shut off that knowing because I didn't want to be sick. Accepting myself is accepting everything all the changes every moment. So, yes, today I feel nauseous, exhausted, and achy. And I'm feeling pretty good.
Love and Light.
2. My adorable dog
3. My car running well
4. The gifts that each person brings into my life
5. Music
6. Creativity
7. Acupuncture
8. Feeling and experiencing all my emotions
9. Feeling and experiencing all that's going on in my body
10. The Light
I'm not feeling well today and I'm learning to be grateful for that. Grateful that I am able to feel that my body, my energy is out of balance. A lot of times in my past I would know that I wasn't feeling well, and then shut off that knowing because I didn't want to be sick. Accepting myself is accepting everything all the changes every moment. So, yes, today I feel nauseous, exhausted, and achy. And I'm feeling pretty good.
Love and Light.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
11-22-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Meditation
3. Chanting
4. Music
5. My wonderful creative job
6. The changability of life
7. Unconditional love
8. Feeling wrapped in The Light
9. Breathing
10. Living
I am enjoying living and experiencing life. Not sitting on the sidelines watching others live, jumping out into the risk and amazing life.
Love and Light.
2. Meditation
3. Chanting
4. Music
5. My wonderful creative job
6. The changability of life
7. Unconditional love
8. Feeling wrapped in The Light
9. Breathing
10. Living
I am enjoying living and experiencing life. Not sitting on the sidelines watching others live, jumping out into the risk and amazing life.
Love and Light.
Monday, November 21, 2011
11-21-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful creative job
4. Friends
5. Music
6. Awareness
7. Acceptance
8. My co-workers
9. Openness and willingness
10. All that I have received
I woke up this morning. Not only physically, but emotionally. I became aware (yet again) how I have been focusing on what has been lacking, and not the gifts that I am receiving. I've been doing this with people in my life too, co-workers, friends, family. I've been seeing in them only what is lacking and what I want to be there. In doing that I am blind to the gifts they are bringing every moment and every day. To only focus on what is missing from life, I miss out on living. I am aware today of the gifts I bring, and the gifts that each person I connect with brings to today.
Love and Light.
Cathy
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful creative job
4. Friends
5. Music
6. Awareness
7. Acceptance
8. My co-workers
9. Openness and willingness
10. All that I have received
I woke up this morning. Not only physically, but emotionally. I became aware (yet again) how I have been focusing on what has been lacking, and not the gifts that I am receiving. I've been doing this with people in my life too, co-workers, friends, family. I've been seeing in them only what is lacking and what I want to be there. In doing that I am blind to the gifts they are bringing every moment and every day. To only focus on what is missing from life, I miss out on living. I am aware today of the gifts I bring, and the gifts that each person I connect with brings to today.
Love and Light.
Cathy
Friday, November 18, 2011
11-18-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Breathing
3. Acupuncture
4. Drum circle
5. Crying
6. My wonderful job
7. The Light
8. All of my emotions
9. Respect and honor
10. Acceptance
It is Friday today. I'm ready for time on my own at home. To really be present at home. I haven't been. I've been falling into the unreality of TV. Falling into the illusion of living by watching others live. And it's not watching others real life either, it's scripted dreams of another. [Sigh] I have started about 10 different sentences and deleted them before they were finished. I don't know how to express this feeling inside. I'm yearning for a change. I love video editing and I'm good at it. I feel like I'm betraying myself by feeling like I want to do something else. I am drawn back to nature photography and videography. I have an assignment to go out and shoot some parks and I love getting shots of nature and wildlife. I could sit there all day doing that. Why am I not doing that?
Love and Light.
2. Breathing
3. Acupuncture
4. Drum circle
5. Crying
6. My wonderful job
7. The Light
8. All of my emotions
9. Respect and honor
10. Acceptance
It is Friday today. I'm ready for time on my own at home. To really be present at home. I haven't been. I've been falling into the unreality of TV. Falling into the illusion of living by watching others live. And it's not watching others real life either, it's scripted dreams of another. [Sigh] I have started about 10 different sentences and deleted them before they were finished. I don't know how to express this feeling inside. I'm yearning for a change. I love video editing and I'm good at it. I feel like I'm betraying myself by feeling like I want to do something else. I am drawn back to nature photography and videography. I have an assignment to go out and shoot some parks and I love getting shots of nature and wildlife. I could sit there all day doing that. Why am I not doing that?
Love and Light.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
11-17-11 grateful for today
1. Breathing
2. Acupuncture and herbs
3. Taking moments to calm and center
4. Water
5. Chanting
6. My wonderful creative job
7. The Light that is always all around everything
8. Being heard
9. My creative talents and abilities
10. My adorable dog.
I am easily annoyed today. I can see myself falling into the old habit of complaining, about the weather, about my health, about my co-workers, about the traffic this morning, about how they put school zone signs on a road that has no school within 1 mile of it. See, there I go complaining. I've been catching myself a lot before the complaint comes out. I don't like how I feel when I complain. I'm complaining about everything external. I know it's within me. I'm angry that I still feel sick, that I still have asthma wheezing, that I'm tired. My fuse is short today. I haven't cried in a couple of weeks. And the last time I cried, I stifled it, I talked myself out of it and in essence, stuffed it into my physical being. A lot of fear coming up. Fear that I'll cry myself into not breathing at all, Fear that I'll express my emotions and cause a major asthma attack and have to go to the hospital. I would like respect of my beliefs. I respect my beliefs and support my beliefs.
Love and Light.
2. Acupuncture and herbs
3. Taking moments to calm and center
4. Water
5. Chanting
6. My wonderful creative job
7. The Light that is always all around everything
8. Being heard
9. My creative talents and abilities
10. My adorable dog.
I am easily annoyed today. I can see myself falling into the old habit of complaining, about the weather, about my health, about my co-workers, about the traffic this morning, about how they put school zone signs on a road that has no school within 1 mile of it. See, there I go complaining. I've been catching myself a lot before the complaint comes out. I don't like how I feel when I complain. I'm complaining about everything external. I know it's within me. I'm angry that I still feel sick, that I still have asthma wheezing, that I'm tired. My fuse is short today. I haven't cried in a couple of weeks. And the last time I cried, I stifled it, I talked myself out of it and in essence, stuffed it into my physical being. A lot of fear coming up. Fear that I'll cry myself into not breathing at all, Fear that I'll express my emotions and cause a major asthma attack and have to go to the hospital. I would like respect of my beliefs. I respect my beliefs and support my beliefs.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
11-16-11 grateful for today
1. Breathing
2. The wind
3. Sunrise
4. Unconditional Love
5. Healthy energy
6. Endless possibilities in every moment
7. Acupuncture
8. Chanting
9. Christmas music
10. Feeling better every day
It has started. I found a radio station today that will be playing Christmas music all the time now. I felt my spirit lift hearing the happy tunes and twinges of nostalgia pulling at my heart. Christmas is the happiest and the saddest time of the year for me. Most of the moments at the same time. Is this what they mean by bitter sweet? Time seems to compress and I can feel my worry increase as I tick off in my head all of the projects and things I want to get done. My first priority is to take care of my health and well-being and then I will be energized to get most of the other things done. I am okay. I am safe. I am loved.
Love and Light.
2. The wind
3. Sunrise
4. Unconditional Love
5. Healthy energy
6. Endless possibilities in every moment
7. Acupuncture
8. Chanting
9. Christmas music
10. Feeling better every day
It has started. I found a radio station today that will be playing Christmas music all the time now. I felt my spirit lift hearing the happy tunes and twinges of nostalgia pulling at my heart. Christmas is the happiest and the saddest time of the year for me. Most of the moments at the same time. Is this what they mean by bitter sweet? Time seems to compress and I can feel my worry increase as I tick off in my head all of the projects and things I want to get done. My first priority is to take care of my health and well-being and then I will be energized to get most of the other things done. I am okay. I am safe. I am loved.
Love and Light.
Monday, November 14, 2011
11-14-11 grateful for today
1. Breathing
2. My adorable dog
3. Acupuncture
4. Unconditional Love
5. My wonderful job
6. Music
7. Endless possibilities in every moment
8. Starting fresh yet again
9. This day and all that is in it
10. Responsibility for my choices
I'm doing okay today. I have been having health problems. My face swelled up on Friday and acupuncture has been helping with that and my breathing. So I spent the weekend napping and watching too many movies on TV. Even when I'm not feeling well, I need to take care of my necessitites, cleaning, cooking, budgeting. I tend to let everything go and wallow in depression when I'm not feeling well. What's funny is that I may have caused my own illness by being depressed to begin with. Such is the downward spiral. I am grateful for acupuncture for the support of breaking that spiral and also of friends to help me move out of it. My soul is yearning to live up north where there are seasons. I accept where I am today. Much Love and Light.
2. My adorable dog
3. Acupuncture
4. Unconditional Love
5. My wonderful job
6. Music
7. Endless possibilities in every moment
8. Starting fresh yet again
9. This day and all that is in it
10. Responsibility for my choices
I'm doing okay today. I have been having health problems. My face swelled up on Friday and acupuncture has been helping with that and my breathing. So I spent the weekend napping and watching too many movies on TV. Even when I'm not feeling well, I need to take care of my necessitites, cleaning, cooking, budgeting. I tend to let everything go and wallow in depression when I'm not feeling well. What's funny is that I may have caused my own illness by being depressed to begin with. Such is the downward spiral. I am grateful for acupuncture for the support of breaking that spiral and also of friends to help me move out of it. My soul is yearning to live up north where there are seasons. I accept where I am today. Much Love and Light.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
11-10-11 grateful for today
1. My wonderful creative job
2. My adorable dog
3. My creativity and talents
4. Band-aids
5. Deadlines
6. Love and Light
7. Living in the moment
8. Breathing
9. Feeling safe
10. Feeling my experiences all the way through
So I've been having some physical issues. Especially with breathing. I had asthma when I was a kid, very bad, many trips to the hospital. My regular breathing in those days was still with blockages in my lungs and slight wheezing. In the past three years I finally was able to experience fully clear and clean breathing. It was wonderful. I stopped many times in my days and just experienced how easy it was to breathe. For the past two months I have had problems with asthma attacks again, and my breathing, regular breathing is labored again. I am so grateful to have had those years to breathe so freely. To experience free and clear breathing. It is a wonderful memory for me now. Also I know I acheived it in the past and so the possibility of achieving it again is very real. I look forward to that day. Until then, I will keep breathing in and out every day as best I can, grateful for every breath.
Love and Light.
2. My adorable dog
3. My creativity and talents
4. Band-aids
5. Deadlines
6. Love and Light
7. Living in the moment
8. Breathing
9. Feeling safe
10. Feeling my experiences all the way through
So I've been having some physical issues. Especially with breathing. I had asthma when I was a kid, very bad, many trips to the hospital. My regular breathing in those days was still with blockages in my lungs and slight wheezing. In the past three years I finally was able to experience fully clear and clean breathing. It was wonderful. I stopped many times in my days and just experienced how easy it was to breathe. For the past two months I have had problems with asthma attacks again, and my breathing, regular breathing is labored again. I am so grateful to have had those years to breathe so freely. To experience free and clear breathing. It is a wonderful memory for me now. Also I know I acheived it in the past and so the possibility of achieving it again is very real. I look forward to that day. Until then, I will keep breathing in and out every day as best I can, grateful for every breath.
Love and Light.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
11-9-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Photos
3. Music
4. My car running well
5. My wonderful, creative job
6. Inspiration, leadings, and guidance
7. Meditation
8. Unconditional love
9. Acceptance of where I am at this moment
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I'm doing better today. I'm not so depressed about being in sunny warm Florida. I wish I was up north. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I'm a northern woman. I am consciously opening myself up to divine guidance and leadings from my heart. I will follow what I'm meant to do on this earth. My soul and heart know. I trust their leadings. I am never trapped. When I feel trapped, I tend to run blindly not knowing where I'm going. I am safe in this moment. All is okay. There is peace in my world. Love and Light.
2. Photos
3. Music
4. My car running well
5. My wonderful, creative job
6. Inspiration, leadings, and guidance
7. Meditation
8. Unconditional love
9. Acceptance of where I am at this moment
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I'm doing better today. I'm not so depressed about being in sunny warm Florida. I wish I was up north. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I'm a northern woman. I am consciously opening myself up to divine guidance and leadings from my heart. I will follow what I'm meant to do on this earth. My soul and heart know. I trust their leadings. I am never trapped. When I feel trapped, I tend to run blindly not knowing where I'm going. I am safe in this moment. All is okay. There is peace in my world. Love and Light.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
11-8-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful job
3. My car running well
4. Creativity and expression
5. Healthy communication
6. Mute button
7. Water
8. Sleeping well
9. Endless possibilities in every moment
10. Unconditional love
I am back from a wonderful vacation. I was up north in the fall weather loving the colored leaves and trees and cold. I was grateful for a lot while I was visiting good friends and playing with kids. My access to computers was limited to explain the gap in this blog. It was also nice, unplugging from technology a bit. I am grateful for the changing and experiencing the seasons. I am also grateful for child innocense. And grateful for recharging my batteries. Taking a break from all my responsibilities. Now I'm back at work for a whole new set of things to be grateful for. Love and Light.
2. My wonderful job
3. My car running well
4. Creativity and expression
5. Healthy communication
6. Mute button
7. Water
8. Sleeping well
9. Endless possibilities in every moment
10. Unconditional love
I am back from a wonderful vacation. I was up north in the fall weather loving the colored leaves and trees and cold. I was grateful for a lot while I was visiting good friends and playing with kids. My access to computers was limited to explain the gap in this blog. It was also nice, unplugging from technology a bit. I am grateful for the changing and experiencing the seasons. I am also grateful for child innocense. And grateful for recharging my batteries. Taking a break from all my responsibilities. Now I'm back at work for a whole new set of things to be grateful for. Love and Light.
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