1. My adorable dog
2. Chanting
3. Meditation
4. My car running well
5. Therapy
6. My wonderful job
7. Music
8. Breathing
9. Unconditional Love
10. The Light
I've been struggling. Getting out of bed is a struggle, feeding myself is a struggle, work has been fraught with struggles, especially the redering/exporting/codecs kind. At the core I am struggling with believing in myself, loving myself, being in that center place in myself where I KNOW myself. I've been lost in confusion for most of my life, it is my comfortably uncomfortable place. Love and Light.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Friday, January 25, 2013
1-25-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Cool weather
3. My car running well
4. Breathing
5. Music
6. God/The Light
7. Unconditional love
8. Half day at work
9. Typing and keyboards
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I am grateful I have a half day here at work and I will be going home and working on creating sacred space at my home. Making and treating my home as sacred and spiritual. That will be different. I've been doing a lot of weird working times for work. I've been having a hard time creating a routine or keeping to a schedule. Today is a restart of a lot of spiritual practices I have let lapse and I'm grateful for the spiritual practices I've been able to keep up with. Love and Light.
2. Cool weather
3. My car running well
4. Breathing
5. Music
6. God/The Light
7. Unconditional love
8. Half day at work
9. Typing and keyboards
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I am grateful I have a half day here at work and I will be going home and working on creating sacred space at my home. Making and treating my home as sacred and spiritual. That will be different. I've been doing a lot of weird working times for work. I've been having a hard time creating a routine or keeping to a schedule. Today is a restart of a lot of spiritual practices I have let lapse and I'm grateful for the spiritual practices I've been able to keep up with. Love and Light.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
1-24-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful friends
4. Happy Hour
5. Cool weather
6. Chanting
7. Music
8. Breathing
9. Sleeping
10. Love and The Light
I am very triggered today by anybody who is not listening to me. I know my co-worker and boss are difficult as neither of them listens well at all. My co-worker believes he knows what I'm going to say or ask before I say it, so that is what he answers and responds to rather than actually hear what I say (which is usually much different than what he expects) and my boss has lost a lot of his hearing and refuses to get hearing aids. I mostly get nods and smiles whenever I talk to him and I know he hasn't heard anything. So this morning my co-worker and boss were trying to talk to each other and they weren't listening to each other and they just got louder and louder trying to outspeak each other. My triggering and emotions went through the roof and I wanted to quit right then. I kept jumping in with information and questions and I was completely ignored. And it's something that the 3 of us are supposed to work together on and come into agreement. I gave up. Love and Light,
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful friends
4. Happy Hour
5. Cool weather
6. Chanting
7. Music
8. Breathing
9. Sleeping
10. Love and The Light
I am very triggered today by anybody who is not listening to me. I know my co-worker and boss are difficult as neither of them listens well at all. My co-worker believes he knows what I'm going to say or ask before I say it, so that is what he answers and responds to rather than actually hear what I say (which is usually much different than what he expects) and my boss has lost a lot of his hearing and refuses to get hearing aids. I mostly get nods and smiles whenever I talk to him and I know he hasn't heard anything. So this morning my co-worker and boss were trying to talk to each other and they weren't listening to each other and they just got louder and louder trying to outspeak each other. My triggering and emotions went through the roof and I wanted to quit right then. I kept jumping in with information and questions and I was completely ignored. And it's something that the 3 of us are supposed to work together on and come into agreement. I gave up. Love and Light,
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
1-23-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful job
4. Breathing
5. Chanting
6. "Centering down"/Meditating
7. Unconditional Love
8. The Light
9. Endless opportunities in every moment
10. Learning
Number nine is a little different today. I realized it after I had already typed it. I usually say "possibilities" instead of "opportunities". It puts a slightly different light on it. Both statements are true. Every possibility is an opportunity? Every opportunity is a possibility? Every single thing that happens no matter how it is judged is a possibility and opportunity. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful job
4. Breathing
5. Chanting
6. "Centering down"/Meditating
7. Unconditional Love
8. The Light
9. Endless opportunities in every moment
10. Learning
Number nine is a little different today. I realized it after I had already typed it. I usually say "possibilities" instead of "opportunities". It puts a slightly different light on it. Both statements are true. Every possibility is an opportunity? Every opportunity is a possibility? Every single thing that happens no matter how it is judged is a possibility and opportunity. Love and Light.
Monday, January 21, 2013
1-21-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Chanting
3. Meditating
4. My wonderful creative job
5. Organization
6. Spiritual cleansing
7. My laptop
8. Unconditional Love
9. Acceptance
10. Surrender
I realized that at my last job I was able to bring a lot of Light and Love to the people that I worked with. I focused on that as my primary function at my last job because I was not interested in the work (I was a secretary) and I was interested in bringing more Light into the world. I was learning through therapy to be able to accept people and honor their feelings and their path and process. I focused on my personal growth and not the job. Now my job is what I am passionate about and I've realized that doing what I am passionate about does fulfill my purpose in life, and I've realized that I need to work on doing my job and bringing in Love and Light like my last job. I've been focused on my work and not on doing it with Love and Light. There is a disconnect between my second and third chakras and I need to build a bridge between them. And I end every post with Love and Light.
2. Chanting
3. Meditating
4. My wonderful creative job
5. Organization
6. Spiritual cleansing
7. My laptop
8. Unconditional Love
9. Acceptance
10. Surrender
I realized that at my last job I was able to bring a lot of Light and Love to the people that I worked with. I focused on that as my primary function at my last job because I was not interested in the work (I was a secretary) and I was interested in bringing more Light into the world. I was learning through therapy to be able to accept people and honor their feelings and their path and process. I focused on my personal growth and not the job. Now my job is what I am passionate about and I've realized that doing what I am passionate about does fulfill my purpose in life, and I've realized that I need to work on doing my job and bringing in Love and Light like my last job. I've been focused on my work and not on doing it with Love and Light. There is a disconnect between my second and third chakras and I need to build a bridge between them. And I end every post with Love and Light.
Friday, January 18, 2013
1-18-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Half day at work today
4. Friday
5. Breathing
6. Sleeping
7. Chanting
8. Cool weather
9. Warm blankets
10. Love and Light
I had completely forgotten about my blog! I had been busy at work with a big project and a ridiculously short deadline. That is no excuse for not doing this blog. As reminding myself to be grateful is a great help to me and would have centered me more this week. I've felt thrown off of my routine and off-kilter. I'm very grateful to be back writing this blog and getting back into taking the time to create sacred space for myself. To hold myself sacred. I am important. This list is important to me. My time is the only time I have and I choose how I'm going to use it. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Half day at work today
4. Friday
5. Breathing
6. Sleeping
7. Chanting
8. Cool weather
9. Warm blankets
10. Love and Light
I had completely forgotten about my blog! I had been busy at work with a big project and a ridiculously short deadline. That is no excuse for not doing this blog. As reminding myself to be grateful is a great help to me and would have centered me more this week. I've felt thrown off of my routine and off-kilter. I'm very grateful to be back writing this blog and getting back into taking the time to create sacred space for myself. To hold myself sacred. I am important. This list is important to me. My time is the only time I have and I choose how I'm going to use it. Love and Light.
Friday, January 11, 2013
1-11-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Endless possibilities in every moment
3. Breathing
4. My car running well
5. Good friends
6. Organization
7. Unconditional Love
8. The Light
9. All my emotions
10. Creativity and talent
I came into work and handed a big job at the last minute. The thing is that great video, even good video, is not done fast. People not in the business always think video is done fast because when they watch it, it goes by fast. It is not created fast. For instance, any good animation is years in the making. Those Toy Story movies, take years for the video to get done. And other movies are in post production for months before you watch your 2 hour movie. So the misperception is that I can get something excellent accomplished in a very short two days is laughable and a lot of pressure. I'm grateful that my boss understands this and understands my frustration and lets me feel it and then we get down to work to do the best we can in the time given to us. That's all I can do in my life for anything, the best I can in the time given to me. Love and Light.
2. Endless possibilities in every moment
3. Breathing
4. My car running well
5. Good friends
6. Organization
7. Unconditional Love
8. The Light
9. All my emotions
10. Creativity and talent
I came into work and handed a big job at the last minute. The thing is that great video, even good video, is not done fast. People not in the business always think video is done fast because when they watch it, it goes by fast. It is not created fast. For instance, any good animation is years in the making. Those Toy Story movies, take years for the video to get done. And other movies are in post production for months before you watch your 2 hour movie. So the misperception is that I can get something excellent accomplished in a very short two days is laughable and a lot of pressure. I'm grateful that my boss understands this and understands my frustration and lets me feel it and then we get down to work to do the best we can in the time given to us. That's all I can do in my life for anything, the best I can in the time given to me. Love and Light.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
1-10-13 Grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Ability to figure out complicated things
3. Creativity and talent
4. This blog
5. Focus and concentration
6. Music
7. Chanting
8. Silence and meditation
9. Unconditional Love
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I woke up today with a "coffee headache". One of those headaches that only goes away with drinking coffee. Which tells me I've been drinking way too much coffee lately. I need to drink more water. I feel better when I'm not addicted to coffee and when I drink more water. Why do I not want to do what I need and what feels better for me? It's my old buried belief, way down hidden under lots of other layers of misled logic and faulty rationalization, and way down under all of that stuff is my old belief that I do not deserve to feel good, that it is scary to feel good. And that's why I do the things that make me feel bad or ill or jittery or headachy the next day. It doesn't seem like that big of a deal, drink a glass of water instead of coffee. Heck, I could even make it warm or hot water instead of coffee and still warm up. And yet, going against a belief ingrained and pounded into me a long time ago is hard to do. I hold myself with gentleness. Love and Light.
2. Ability to figure out complicated things
3. Creativity and talent
4. This blog
5. Focus and concentration
6. Music
7. Chanting
8. Silence and meditation
9. Unconditional Love
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I woke up today with a "coffee headache". One of those headaches that only goes away with drinking coffee. Which tells me I've been drinking way too much coffee lately. I need to drink more water. I feel better when I'm not addicted to coffee and when I drink more water. Why do I not want to do what I need and what feels better for me? It's my old buried belief, way down hidden under lots of other layers of misled logic and faulty rationalization, and way down under all of that stuff is my old belief that I do not deserve to feel good, that it is scary to feel good. And that's why I do the things that make me feel bad or ill or jittery or headachy the next day. It doesn't seem like that big of a deal, drink a glass of water instead of coffee. Heck, I could even make it warm or hot water instead of coffee and still warm up. And yet, going against a belief ingrained and pounded into me a long time ago is hard to do. I hold myself with gentleness. Love and Light.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
1-9-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Creativity and talent
3. My car running well
4. Organization
5. Endless possibilities in every moment
6. Choices and responsibility
7. Music
8. Chanting
9. Warm fuzzy blanket
10. Unconditional Love
I made a decision today. A decision to finally get on the smart phone bandwagon. I believe that I will be able to keep my phone bill low by changing my account options when I get my phone delivered. I'm now double guessing my decision. I don't know if I decided to get this iPhone because I've seen all my friends and collegues having one, or if it is in my own highest good to have an iPhone. I know I don't like my Blackberry, and I feel stupid when a friend hands me a their phone to do something with it and I don't know what I'm doing. I am looking forward to having easier and fast access to take higher quality pictures without having to pull out my separate camera. And looking forward to taking video easily when I haven't taken any home videos of kids or family in over a year. I guess I'm expecting to make a decision and be happy with it right when I make it and I haven't been lately. I've been making decision and then double guessing myself and wondering if I'm doing something that is in The Highest Good. Well, we'll see, the phone is ordered. I know I'm having a good time with my laptop. Don't know if it's making me more organized. Love and Light.
2. Creativity and talent
3. My car running well
4. Organization
5. Endless possibilities in every moment
6. Choices and responsibility
7. Music
8. Chanting
9. Warm fuzzy blanket
10. Unconditional Love
I made a decision today. A decision to finally get on the smart phone bandwagon. I believe that I will be able to keep my phone bill low by changing my account options when I get my phone delivered. I'm now double guessing my decision. I don't know if I decided to get this iPhone because I've seen all my friends and collegues having one, or if it is in my own highest good to have an iPhone. I know I don't like my Blackberry, and I feel stupid when a friend hands me a their phone to do something with it and I don't know what I'm doing. I am looking forward to having easier and fast access to take higher quality pictures without having to pull out my separate camera. And looking forward to taking video easily when I haven't taken any home videos of kids or family in over a year. I guess I'm expecting to make a decision and be happy with it right when I make it and I haven't been lately. I've been making decision and then double guessing myself and wondering if I'm doing something that is in The Highest Good. Well, we'll see, the phone is ordered. I know I'm having a good time with my laptop. Don't know if it's making me more organized. Love and Light.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
1-8-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Rest and relaxation
3. My new (used) laptop
4. My car running well
5. My brain
6. Sacred space
7. Creativity and talent
8. Collaboration
9. Endless possibilities in every moment
10. Love and Light
I'm back to my blog. I had a great vacation and limited access to a computer, so I'm back now on my daily blog. So far I'm loving taking my laptop with me wherever I go. I love seeing my dog again. Not too happy about being in Florida, I wanted to stay up in Atlanta. I got a little depressed driving back down here. And I've been messing about with my new laptop and not getting necessary stuff done. This is a new year, a new day, a new hour to do the tasks in front of me with all my attention and love. Love and Light.
2. Rest and relaxation
3. My new (used) laptop
4. My car running well
5. My brain
6. Sacred space
7. Creativity and talent
8. Collaboration
9. Endless possibilities in every moment
10. Love and Light
I'm back to my blog. I had a great vacation and limited access to a computer, so I'm back now on my daily blog. So far I'm loving taking my laptop with me wherever I go. I love seeing my dog again. Not too happy about being in Florida, I wanted to stay up in Atlanta. I got a little depressed driving back down here. And I've been messing about with my new laptop and not getting necessary stuff done. This is a new year, a new day, a new hour to do the tasks in front of me with all my attention and love. Love and Light.
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