1. My adorable dog
2. Camping
3. Waking up to bird song
4. Breathing
5. Gentleness
6. Witness
7. Unconditional Love
8. My car running well
9. Quaker retreat
10. Endless possibilities in every moment.
It has been absolutely wonderful to be in a community at this Quaker retreat where every member holds listening to the other in higher respect than being heard. Every member holds speaking their truth gently and in love higher than being heard. And in holding these things, every member feels heard and held in Love. Love and Light.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Friday, March 29, 2013
3-29-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Beautiful Quaker retreat
3. Silence
4. Reconnection to the Light
5. Cool weather
6. Worship sharing
7. Kindness and gentleness
8. Listening with heart
9. Messages from Spirit
10. Unconditional Love
Quakers is a meeting of people in a spirit of gentleness, equality, listening, love, with silence as an important member of the meeting. I am feeling restored and regenerated. The pace here is slow and gentle. I was in need of gentleness, I needed to slow down. I had forgotten how to be gentle with myself, how to be compassionate with myself, and I don't know if I have ever figured out how to love myself yet. This Quaker retreat has been such good medicine for me to remind me how to be gentle, to remind me that I am and have a piece of The Light, to remind me that I am connected to everybody. Love and Light.
2. Beautiful Quaker retreat
3. Silence
4. Reconnection to the Light
5. Cool weather
6. Worship sharing
7. Kindness and gentleness
8. Listening with heart
9. Messages from Spirit
10. Unconditional Love
Quakers is a meeting of people in a spirit of gentleness, equality, listening, love, with silence as an important member of the meeting. I am feeling restored and regenerated. The pace here is slow and gentle. I was in need of gentleness, I needed to slow down. I had forgotten how to be gentle with myself, how to be compassionate with myself, and I don't know if I have ever figured out how to love myself yet. This Quaker retreat has been such good medicine for me to remind me how to be gentle, to remind me that I am and have a piece of The Light, to remind me that I am connected to everybody. Love and Light.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
3-28-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Camping
3. Cold weather
4. Quakers
5. Silence
6. Birds singing
7. Meals figured out for me
8. The Light
9. Unconditional Love
10. Calmness & Comfort
I am at my Quaker retreat and camping in my tent. Last night it went down into the 30s and I stayed toasty warm encased in several blankets. The only time the cold got to me is when I was up in the morning and getting around. My clothes were freezing. I've had a beautiful morning chanting and meditating with the birds singing. It's so quiet here. Just beautiful. Love and Light.
2. Camping
3. Cold weather
4. Quakers
5. Silence
6. Birds singing
7. Meals figured out for me
8. The Light
9. Unconditional Love
10. Calmness & Comfort
I am at my Quaker retreat and camping in my tent. Last night it went down into the 30s and I stayed toasty warm encased in several blankets. The only time the cold got to me is when I was up in the morning and getting around. My clothes were freezing. I've had a beautiful morning chanting and meditating with the birds singing. It's so quiet here. Just beautiful. Love and Light.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
3-27-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Cool weather
3. My car running well
4. 5 days off from work
5. Restoration, Returning, Regeneration
6. Unconditional Love
7. Music, chanting
8. Meditation
9. Writing, paper, pens, laptops, blogs
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I have been in a dark place. A place where I could not see The Light. So dark I couldn't understand how I could have ever seen the Light. I'm the one that turned away. I ran away from The Light's guidance. From the lighted path. I ran because the Light shined on things about myself I didn't want to see. The Light shined on parts of myself, parts of my experience that I have denied, that I have disowned. Shining on behaviors and beliefs deeply imprinted that I was not even aware of believing and behaving. The Light shined on all of me and loves all of me and I was the one who could not love myself, not those parts. I am now going on a spiritual retreat for 5 days. My intention is to Re-Turn to the Light, to reestablish my connection with The Light/God. I will gather my strength and courage to walk where The Light is leading and to see those parts of me, and I pray that I will love me, all of me. Love and Light.
2. Cool weather
3. My car running well
4. 5 days off from work
5. Restoration, Returning, Regeneration
6. Unconditional Love
7. Music, chanting
8. Meditation
9. Writing, paper, pens, laptops, blogs
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I have been in a dark place. A place where I could not see The Light. So dark I couldn't understand how I could have ever seen the Light. I'm the one that turned away. I ran away from The Light's guidance. From the lighted path. I ran because the Light shined on things about myself I didn't want to see. The Light shined on parts of myself, parts of my experience that I have denied, that I have disowned. Shining on behaviors and beliefs deeply imprinted that I was not even aware of believing and behaving. The Light shined on all of me and loves all of me and I was the one who could not love myself, not those parts. I am now going on a spiritual retreat for 5 days. My intention is to Re-Turn to the Light, to reestablish my connection with The Light/God. I will gather my strength and courage to walk where The Light is leading and to see those parts of me, and I pray that I will love me, all of me. Love and Light.
Friday, March 22, 2013
3-22-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Friday!
3. Music
4. Chanting
5. Creativity
6. Choices and responsibility
7. Unconditional Love
8. PTI
9. The Light
10. My car running well
I started this list in the morning, and then got busy at work. And more truthfully, I didn't think I had anything to say. Words are powerful, very powerful. Speaking my truth is powerful. Speaking.
I wrote many many poems through my childhood. Hidden in the rhymes and creative metaphors, wound around into obscurity and denial, I was screaming, "Listen to me!" I could not say what I desperately needed someone to hear. I could not speak it in all my childhood and young adult years. I am just now, at 42 readying myself to speak my truth. Words are powerful. Speaking truth opens me up, I become vulnerable and beautiful, I am able to be touched by life and this world and people in it and that is called LIVING. Words are powerful. Speaking lies (and holding my truth back) I become hard and closed and life seems pointless and empty and angry, and that is called SURVIVING. For me it is. Which when I am in "survival" mode, being open and vulnerable is very hard for me to see as "living" as my rational shadow would have me believe that the opposite of "surviving" is "death." And I am afraid. The truth is that "surviving" equals "not living", so to live, I need to always speak my truth. Love and Light.
2. Friday!
3. Music
4. Chanting
5. Creativity
6. Choices and responsibility
7. Unconditional Love
8. PTI
9. The Light
10. My car running well
I started this list in the morning, and then got busy at work. And more truthfully, I didn't think I had anything to say. Words are powerful, very powerful. Speaking my truth is powerful. Speaking.
I wrote many many poems through my childhood. Hidden in the rhymes and creative metaphors, wound around into obscurity and denial, I was screaming, "Listen to me!" I could not say what I desperately needed someone to hear. I could not speak it in all my childhood and young adult years. I am just now, at 42 readying myself to speak my truth. Words are powerful. Speaking truth opens me up, I become vulnerable and beautiful, I am able to be touched by life and this world and people in it and that is called LIVING. Words are powerful. Speaking lies (and holding my truth back) I become hard and closed and life seems pointless and empty and angry, and that is called SURVIVING. For me it is. Which when I am in "survival" mode, being open and vulnerable is very hard for me to see as "living" as my rational shadow would have me believe that the opposite of "surviving" is "death." And I am afraid. The truth is that "surviving" equals "not living", so to live, I need to always speak my truth. Love and Light.
Friday, March 8, 2013
3-8-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Breathing
4. My freedom at my job
5. Choices and responsibility
6. Sleeping
7. Chanting
8. Meditating
9. Unconditional Love
10. The Light
I am my own worst enemy. I was sick last night. I woke up this morning to my alarm and was feeling better. I took extra time in the morning, grateful to my freedom at work to be able to do that. And as I was taking my extra time, chanting, and meditation, and sitting quietly listening for guidance from The Light. Everything was telling me to take a sick day. Stay home, take care of myself. I need time at home. I feel exhausted. Spirit, my body, my emotions, my heart were all telling me to do what I need to do for me, stay at home recharge, regenerate. And then my brain kicked in, my own worst enemy, I started chugging over my work schedule, commercial spots that need to get done. I have a student intern now, what was she going to do if I wasn't there? And in formulating who I needed to contact and what information I needed to convey so that everything was covered today, all of a sudden it just seemed easier to go to work. Now I'm here and not doing anything particularly well. Thinking to myself that I should have stayed home. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Breathing
4. My freedom at my job
5. Choices and responsibility
6. Sleeping
7. Chanting
8. Meditating
9. Unconditional Love
10. The Light
I am my own worst enemy. I was sick last night. I woke up this morning to my alarm and was feeling better. I took extra time in the morning, grateful to my freedom at work to be able to do that. And as I was taking my extra time, chanting, and meditation, and sitting quietly listening for guidance from The Light. Everything was telling me to take a sick day. Stay home, take care of myself. I need time at home. I feel exhausted. Spirit, my body, my emotions, my heart were all telling me to do what I need to do for me, stay at home recharge, regenerate. And then my brain kicked in, my own worst enemy, I started chugging over my work schedule, commercial spots that need to get done. I have a student intern now, what was she going to do if I wasn't there? And in formulating who I needed to contact and what information I needed to convey so that everything was covered today, all of a sudden it just seemed easier to go to work. Now I'm here and not doing anything particularly well. Thinking to myself that I should have stayed home. Love and Light.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
3-6-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. A place to sleep at night
4. Mastermind
5. Good friends
6. Breathing
7. Cute baby animal videos
8. Earth air sun trees
9. Choices and responsibility
10. Love and Light
I don't know what to write about today. You can tell by my gaps in my posts that I have not been keeping up this practice lately. I did so well for a year or so. I wonder what happens within me that has me decide to stop, or maybe I start thinking I don't need this anymore. It's not like I'm walking around constantly grateful (which is my goal). Or even thinking positively more than negatively. When I stop posting for stretches at a time, it is most likely the times I NEED to do this post every day. I sink into despair and negativity and I struggle with coming up with more than one thing. It's easy for me to come up with my number one grateful every day, my dog. The rest is harder. Why isn't this just a list that keeps getting longer, why is it that it's not additive? I could probably come up with a "standard 10" and just post that same list every day. And I know my pitfall of doing that. As soon as it becomes habit, routine, it doesn't mean anything. I repeat the same things and I don't really feel the gratitude. So I try to feel the gratitude for the things on this list, or sometimes I put things on it that I WANT to feel gratitude for. Something to work on for the day. I don't know what I'm doing. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. A place to sleep at night
4. Mastermind
5. Good friends
6. Breathing
7. Cute baby animal videos
8. Earth air sun trees
9. Choices and responsibility
10. Love and Light
I don't know what to write about today. You can tell by my gaps in my posts that I have not been keeping up this practice lately. I did so well for a year or so. I wonder what happens within me that has me decide to stop, or maybe I start thinking I don't need this anymore. It's not like I'm walking around constantly grateful (which is my goal). Or even thinking positively more than negatively. When I stop posting for stretches at a time, it is most likely the times I NEED to do this post every day. I sink into despair and negativity and I struggle with coming up with more than one thing. It's easy for me to come up with my number one grateful every day, my dog. The rest is harder. Why isn't this just a list that keeps getting longer, why is it that it's not additive? I could probably come up with a "standard 10" and just post that same list every day. And I know my pitfall of doing that. As soon as it becomes habit, routine, it doesn't mean anything. I repeat the same things and I don't really feel the gratitude. So I try to feel the gratitude for the things on this list, or sometimes I put things on it that I WANT to feel gratitude for. Something to work on for the day. I don't know what I'm doing. Love and Light.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
3-5-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Cool weather
3. My car running well
4. My best friend
5. Choices and responsibility
6. Music
7. A place to sleep
8. Breathing
9. The earth, animals, trees
10. The Light
I'm grateful I live in a time where music is so incredibly accessible and portable. I can take amazing symphonies and orchestras around with me in my phone. I can listen to music anywhere. Before portable devices, people could only hear music that they created themselves. There is a beauty and solace in that also. A lot more people joined in song, joined in drumming, joined in adding their voice, their music to the community. I am grateful to be able to listen to amazing music wherever I am in my headphones. I long to sing and play music with my community. Love and Light.
2. Cool weather
3. My car running well
4. My best friend
5. Choices and responsibility
6. Music
7. A place to sleep
8. Breathing
9. The earth, animals, trees
10. The Light
I'm grateful I live in a time where music is so incredibly accessible and portable. I can take amazing symphonies and orchestras around with me in my phone. I can listen to music anywhere. Before portable devices, people could only hear music that they created themselves. There is a beauty and solace in that also. A lot more people joined in song, joined in drumming, joined in adding their voice, their music to the community. I am grateful to be able to listen to amazing music wherever I am in my headphones. I long to sing and play music with my community. Love and Light.
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