5-9-10 grateful for today

1. Life can change and does change every moment
2. Choices
3. My adorable dog
4. Movies
5. My imagination and creativity
6. My soul
7. My movie and editing equipment
8. Hammock
9. Friends
10. My light within me.

I'm very tired and depressed. I'm now doing two jobs that have no creativity and no imagination in them. I feel stifled and lost and tired. I went to do a simple fix to my sink and broke it worse and now it's more complicated, I broke something behind a wall. I'm not asking for help. I need help. I want help. I'm keeping myself shut off from other people and giving myself an illusion of being connected. I traded one illusion for another. Some choices are very hard. I don't believe it is a choice until it is acted upon.

5-8-10 grateful for today

1. My second temporary job
2. My adorable dog
3. My car running well
4. My primary job
5. Meeting people and being outside working
6. Endless opportunities in every moment
7. Food that I have been given
8. My body in good working order
9. That my heart and soul makes my decisions, not my brain
10. My intelligence.

Wow! An entire week went by and I didn't post my grateful list. I can feel that I haven't also, because I spiral down into just thinking about the things that I don't have that I want. This list is very helpful for me to stay in gratitude and that makes my days so much more enjoyable. Since I'm working two jobs for a little while, I'm allowing myself just to post the list and not write for 15 minutes. As long as I get my list up of 10 things in the morning, that will help me. When I have time, I'll write some more thoughts and explanations.

Thanks for listening.

4-30-10 grateful for today

1. Tea
2. Water
3. My adorable dog
4. Sleeping in
5. This day
6. Opportunity to start over
7. My second job
8. Showering
9. The pool
10. My home

I am grateful for my home. I have been rather annoyed with my home for a few weeks, months, years. I have had the belief that my home has a feeling to it, a sensation when I walk through the door, that strips away all my good intentions and just radiates bad feelings. I've been wanting to move away for years, and have not done it. Mainly for financial reasons, I tell myself. The feeling of my home is only a reflection of the feeling I put onto it. I love my home and I am grateful for it.

Along the same lines, I haven't been taking care of myself, lately. As you can probably tell by the gap in these posts. Doing this list every day is helpful for me in taking care of myself. It is easier for me to do the things I need to do to take care of myself when I start out being grateful. I take care of myself from a place of love, not because I have to.

I'm grateful for starting over. I'm starting over in a lot of things today. I'm restarting my 40 day meditation cycle. I'm restarting this blog. I'm starting over in taking care of myself, my things, my house. I'm starting over being grateful for my second job. I'm starting over using my 15 minute timer (I haven't been using it except for meditation for a couple of weeks). I'm starting over my commitment to myself for my personal growth.

That's my 15 minutes