8-21-10 grateful for today

1. Unconditional love
2. My adorable dog
3. My permission to be a mess
4. My creativity
5. Abundant time and space
6. Thunderstorms
7. The air and sun and outside
8. Inner awareness
9. My ignorance
10. Chanting

I haven't done this list in over a MONTH! I have excuses I could tell you . . . I was working two jobs for while and got out of the habit . . . blah blah blah. This list is not easy for me. It's uncomfortable and hard some days to come up with 10 things. I know and feel it helps me when I do it. I chose to listen to the lies, the illusions I came up with to not do this list. I know my soul needs this list daily at this time in my life. It doesn't matter if anybody reads it or not. I need it! And I need it out there where it can be found by other people. Too much of myself I have been keeping to myself. Locked away in my thoughts, locked away in journals and other places where nobody can find them. I don't want to be lost anymore. So this I need, to remind me of being grateful is beautiful and accessible, and to share some of me with the world. So, here I am again.

I gave myself permission to be a mess today. I worked on a creative project involving cutting up and gluing pieces of cereal boxes. I had the intention of cleaning my house up as I will be having company tomorrow all day. I lost my motivation. I've been struggling with being clean and tidy my whole life. And again I fell into its trap and rather watched TV than fold laundry or load the dishwasher. So I'm grateful that I was able to give myself permission to be a mess. I actually felt better cleaning up a few things because that pressure of cleaning everything was off. So, I did do a few things. (I've also set my alarm early in the morning to clean before my guest arrives).

8-19-10 grateful for today

1. Happy Hour
2. Open heart and mind
3. Abundance of choices
4. My adorable dog
5. My car running well
6. DQ Mini Blizzard
7. This experience of being a secretary as I know I will never have this experience ever again.
8. Infinite possibilities
9. My income
10. Mastermind

(again I wrote this at work because I felt myself dragging myself down into wallowing and whining about my circumstances. I had a harder time writing this list today than yesterday. It helps)

8-18-10 grateful for today

1. My car running well
2. My adorable dog
3. Friends who understand the personal work I'm doing
4. Affirmations
5. Abundance of choices
6. Responsibility of my choices
7. Abundant possibilities & opportunities
8. Food and Nourishment
9. Energy of life flowing through me
10. My intelligence, creativity, and imagination

(wrote this at work because I was in "life sucks" mode and I wanted to get out of it. This list helped a lot).