1. Ken's blog at MildlyCreative.com
2. Asking without attachment
3. My vision board
4. My talents and abilities
5. Unconditional love and acceptance
6. Trust
7. My car running well
8. My adorable dog
9. Taking risks
10. Cool rainy cloudy weather.
Check out Ken's blog here: http://www.mildlycreative.com/2010/04/do-what-moves-you-because-nobody-moves-like-you-do/. His blog for April 12th is insightful also. I'm so grateful that there are resources out there that people like Ken share. It's nice to be reminded that I'm the only one that does it like me. I had recently been offered an opportunity to teach shooting on a set. I am good at what I do and I'm also good at teaching. The thing that was stopping me and what I put out there as an excuse to hide behind my resistance was my equipment. My equipment is old and out of date and most of it I made myself from home depot. The things I shoot, you wouldn't be able to tell that the equipment is not "professional". And I was using this excuse and hiding behind that my fear of rejection. My equipment will be laughed at, I wont' be taken seriously because of my equipment. Just take equipment out of those sentences and my real and true fear comes to the front. I'm afraid I'll be laughed at, I'm afraid I won't be taken seriously just as myself. And I become clear. I take these secretary jobs because I know it's not risk. Because I know I won't be challenged. Because I know if I screw up, I won't care. And so I take these jobs that do not fit, that I don't care about, and then I don't care about anything in the world.
There was a time when I did challenge myself, when I spent all my time at creating a business for myself. I did pretty well, yeah, I made some mistakes, AND I was doing it. In the end, I hadn't processed my personal terror, and I got in my own way. Now what? Now what risk am I going to take? What am I afraid of?
That's my 15 minutes.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
4-12-10 grateful for today
1. Rain
2. My adorable dog
3. Engaging with people
4. Each new moment is a choice
5. A good friend to spend lunch with
6. Time moving along
7. Physical movement
8. Free
9. Abundance of opportunities and directions for me to go in
10. Choosing ALL
I made my list at work today. I was having a "my-life-sucks" day. I came home and had a cry and scream into my release pillow day. It's not even stuff that happened today. It was a build up of emotions getting stuck in my body. I have a lot of them stuck in my body. I'm grateful for my body. I'm grateful for physical movement to release all that is stuck all over my body. It's not just hurt and pain stuck in there. Pleasure and joy are stuck in there to. Along with excitement. What's very interesting for me is that I really have to pay a lot of attention to breathing when I'm doing physical activity. It needs to be conscious thought for me to breathe. Because for most of my life, I didn't breathe through physical movement or physical touching. Physical exercise is much different when I'm breathing. I feel like my blog is not very cohesive or coherent tonight. That's okay. There's always another tomorrow.
Much love and light.
2. My adorable dog
3. Engaging with people
4. Each new moment is a choice
5. A good friend to spend lunch with
6. Time moving along
7. Physical movement
8. Free
9. Abundance of opportunities and directions for me to go in
10. Choosing ALL
I made my list at work today. I was having a "my-life-sucks" day. I came home and had a cry and scream into my release pillow day. It's not even stuff that happened today. It was a build up of emotions getting stuck in my body. I have a lot of them stuck in my body. I'm grateful for my body. I'm grateful for physical movement to release all that is stuck all over my body. It's not just hurt and pain stuck in there. Pleasure and joy are stuck in there to. Along with excitement. What's very interesting for me is that I really have to pay a lot of attention to breathing when I'm doing physical activity. It needs to be conscious thought for me to breathe. Because for most of my life, I didn't breathe through physical movement or physical touching. Physical exercise is much different when I'm breathing. I feel like my blog is not very cohesive or coherent tonight. That's okay. There's always another tomorrow.
Much love and light.
Friday, April 9, 2010
4-9-10 grateful for today
1. Snoozing more than once.
2. Gmail
3. Organization
4. Endless possibilities
5. Infinite opportunities
6. FRIDAY!
7. Choices
8. Relaxation
9. Beautiful sunrise
10. My good enough job
I snoozed my alarm for an hour. I was up late with the dog. There were lots of weird noises last night and he was jumping up and barking at every one. We both finally fell into a good sleep about midnight. So, I'm taking a slow morning getting around for work. I love Gmail, it's so easy to organize my emails on there. I know I'm in an organizing mood because I just spent a half hour organizing my emails. So, tonight after work, its organization time (with my 15 minute timer).
It's a beautiful orangey peachy color in the east. I'm looking forward to the weekend and accomplishing many tasks. I'm in slow mode and that's okay for today. It's good to have slow periods and take my time to look around and feel my experience rather than just do and get it done.
Much love and light to all.
2. Gmail
3. Organization
4. Endless possibilities
5. Infinite opportunities
6. FRIDAY!
7. Choices
8. Relaxation
9. Beautiful sunrise
10. My good enough job
I snoozed my alarm for an hour. I was up late with the dog. There were lots of weird noises last night and he was jumping up and barking at every one. We both finally fell into a good sleep about midnight. So, I'm taking a slow morning getting around for work. I love Gmail, it's so easy to organize my emails on there. I know I'm in an organizing mood because I just spent a half hour organizing my emails. So, tonight after work, its organization time (with my 15 minute timer).
It's a beautiful orangey peachy color in the east. I'm looking forward to the weekend and accomplishing many tasks. I'm in slow mode and that's okay for today. It's good to have slow periods and take my time to look around and feel my experience rather than just do and get it done.
Much love and light to all.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
4-8-10 grateful for today
1. Happy Hour
2. My video equipment
3. Laughing doubled over until no sound comes out and tears do
4. Good friends
5. Food
6. My bed and sleeping
7. Infinite possibilities
8. Bartering
9. Trust
10. Openness
I'm grateful for life. I have had a pretty rough time the past few days being grateful for things and finding negativity creep into my life. And with that, the illusion that the problems in my life are caused by external things. I am the power in my life and I choose to keep my power. Therefore I take full responsibility for my life as it is. I have made the choices in it and I am the one that has gotten me to this moment. The universe is infinite as I am infinite.
I can hear some of you say, "Oh, THAT'S why you haven't been blogging your grateful list everyday, you been having a rough time." Which can make sense. I choose to believe it is the other way around. I've had a rough time being grateful because I haven't done my grateful list every day.
It seems as though my choices and decisions are getting bigger, that what I choose has more effect on my life. I think the choices have been there all along, I just didn't allow myself to see them. So, as I gather my power back, I'm seeing the bigger choices and adventure. And as I see the bigger choices and make decisions, I gather my power back. I've gotten scared a few times about all the possibilities presented to me. I realize now when I just want to sit and watch movies all day or play video games, it means I'm avoiding seeing a big choice or choices in front of me. I've had that the last few days, and when I'm present in the moment, I can see a huge number of possibilites for my life to choose from. And what's really cool, being a scanner, I get to choose all of them!
That's my 15 minutes.
2. My video equipment
3. Laughing doubled over until no sound comes out and tears do
4. Good friends
5. Food
6. My bed and sleeping
7. Infinite possibilities
8. Bartering
9. Trust
10. Openness
I'm grateful for life. I have had a pretty rough time the past few days being grateful for things and finding negativity creep into my life. And with that, the illusion that the problems in my life are caused by external things. I am the power in my life and I choose to keep my power. Therefore I take full responsibility for my life as it is. I have made the choices in it and I am the one that has gotten me to this moment. The universe is infinite as I am infinite.
I can hear some of you say, "Oh, THAT'S why you haven't been blogging your grateful list everyday, you been having a rough time." Which can make sense. I choose to believe it is the other way around. I've had a rough time being grateful because I haven't done my grateful list every day.
It seems as though my choices and decisions are getting bigger, that what I choose has more effect on my life. I think the choices have been there all along, I just didn't allow myself to see them. So, as I gather my power back, I'm seeing the bigger choices and adventure. And as I see the bigger choices and make decisions, I gather my power back. I've gotten scared a few times about all the possibilities presented to me. I realize now when I just want to sit and watch movies all day or play video games, it means I'm avoiding seeing a big choice or choices in front of me. I've had that the last few days, and when I'm present in the moment, I can see a huge number of possibilites for my life to choose from. And what's really cool, being a scanner, I get to choose all of them!
That's my 15 minutes.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
4-6-10 grateful for today
1. A relaxed morning
2. Goodbye
3. open to all possibilities
4. Connected to AND & ALL
5. My adorable dog
6. My car running well
7. My good enough job
8. The end of my vacation
9. Choices
10. Universal energy
I've realized that I have been thinking in terms of "lack", in terms of "either/or". Such as, I can either afford this evening seminar or this Tai Chi class. I need to be thinking in terms of "AND" & "ALL". I have the power within me to be able to attend this evening seminar AND this Tai Chi class. I have the ability and time to to do ALL that I want to do. It gets a bit tricky for me as my finances are committed to past debts at this time. And also there is this thing called "when". I would not be able to attend the evening seminar and tai chi class if they were held at the same time, so finding ones that fit in my time schedule is something I do naturally. Finding ones that fit in my budget monetarily and time wise, I'm not as practiced yet. So, something to work on. Rarely is anything in this world "one time only". Our soul lessons keep repeating for us, so do opportunities. The evening seminar will come around again. The Tai Chi class is ongoing. It is possible to think in terms of AND and ALL and stop limited myself. I am able to have my good enough job and enjoy the people there and celebrate my income AND pursue my career of passion AND all my other ideas and creativity that come up.
Life is experience and beautiful. Much love and light . That's my 15 minutes.
2. Goodbye
3. open to all possibilities
4. Connected to AND & ALL
5. My adorable dog
6. My car running well
7. My good enough job
8. The end of my vacation
9. Choices
10. Universal energy
I've realized that I have been thinking in terms of "lack", in terms of "either/or". Such as, I can either afford this evening seminar or this Tai Chi class. I need to be thinking in terms of "AND" & "ALL". I have the power within me to be able to attend this evening seminar AND this Tai Chi class. I have the ability and time to to do ALL that I want to do. It gets a bit tricky for me as my finances are committed to past debts at this time. And also there is this thing called "when". I would not be able to attend the evening seminar and tai chi class if they were held at the same time, so finding ones that fit in my time schedule is something I do naturally. Finding ones that fit in my budget monetarily and time wise, I'm not as practiced yet. So, something to work on. Rarely is anything in this world "one time only". Our soul lessons keep repeating for us, so do opportunities. The evening seminar will come around again. The Tai Chi class is ongoing. It is possible to think in terms of AND and ALL and stop limited myself. I am able to have my good enough job and enjoy the people there and celebrate my income AND pursue my career of passion AND all my other ideas and creativity that come up.
Life is experience and beautiful. Much love and light . That's my 15 minutes.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
4-4-10 grateful for today
1. My friend Jamie
2. The beach
3. Sharing
4. Acceptance
5. Unconditional love
6. My adorable dog
7. Change
8. Open to possibilities
9. Joy
10. The sun and earth
I'm sorry I haven't posted in a couple of days. I'm not giving an excuse. I take full responsibility for missing 2 whole days in a row. My friend Jamie is staying with me visiting and we have been connecting and sharing and I did not make time for this list. I have been enjoying the last couple of days immensely. I am leaving Jamie alone in the other room, so I'm not going to take up too much more time on this list today.
Love and light.
2. The beach
3. Sharing
4. Acceptance
5. Unconditional love
6. My adorable dog
7. Change
8. Open to possibilities
9. Joy
10. The sun and earth
I'm sorry I haven't posted in a couple of days. I'm not giving an excuse. I take full responsibility for missing 2 whole days in a row. My friend Jamie is staying with me visiting and we have been connecting and sharing and I did not make time for this list. I have been enjoying the last couple of days immensely. I am leaving Jamie alone in the other room, so I'm not going to take up too much more time on this list today.
Love and light.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
4-1-10 grateful for today
1. Happy Hour
2. Mastermind
3. Sharing with other souls
4. Life experiences
5. Arts and crafts
6. Letting go
7. Valuing myself
8. Knowing when others are projecting onto me
9. Scanners!
10. Honesty
Yes, Happy Hour is at the top of my list and it's something different than what a majority will think it is. I'm starting a business enterprise with a partner and we are calling our weekly meetings Happy Hour. We are starting a partnership business venture doing things that we love to do and this is to remind us that we are Happy talking about ideas and action steps and procedures and who to get involved and all that stuff that goes into a business that sometimes gets tedious. We focus on this business being fun and enjoyable and that other stuff is fun an enjoyable too because we are our own bosses. We make all the decisions. And so, Happy Hour. My business partner is also a scanner (see Barbara Sher's "Refuse to Choose" for more info on scanners), which makes it a lot of fun also because the directions we go and are following are unlimited. Scanners in business together making a scanner business. This will be so much fun.
I am grateful that there are other souls on this planet that I'm able to share with and are able to share with me. All life's experiences are precious and we learn on our path. The exchange of energy with true sharing of self is such a beautiful and amazing process. Powerful. Exchanging of energy, energy is power, open and honest sharing of self. I know before for most of my life, I shared about other people because I didn't want to lose my energy, what I didn't know, and what was not taught to me, that sharing about myself, truly and honestly, fills me with more energy and power than hoarding all the energy inside me for myself. Energy gains power exponentially when shared. I know now that when I'm talking with another person about somebody that is not there is an illusion. It is not sharing my energy. It's not sharing any energy at all. It's a false sense of connection, that leaves me feeling empty and alone. It's this illusion that our society has been teaching for generations out of "politeness" and "decorum". When sharing how we truly feel honestly with others that accept and support our feelings just by holding sacred space for them, will do so much more for our society than any prisons or laws or government.
That's my 15 minutes.
2. Mastermind
3. Sharing with other souls
4. Life experiences
5. Arts and crafts
6. Letting go
7. Valuing myself
8. Knowing when others are projecting onto me
9. Scanners!
10. Honesty
Yes, Happy Hour is at the top of my list and it's something different than what a majority will think it is. I'm starting a business enterprise with a partner and we are calling our weekly meetings Happy Hour. We are starting a partnership business venture doing things that we love to do and this is to remind us that we are Happy talking about ideas and action steps and procedures and who to get involved and all that stuff that goes into a business that sometimes gets tedious. We focus on this business being fun and enjoyable and that other stuff is fun an enjoyable too because we are our own bosses. We make all the decisions. And so, Happy Hour. My business partner is also a scanner (see Barbara Sher's "Refuse to Choose" for more info on scanners), which makes it a lot of fun also because the directions we go and are following are unlimited. Scanners in business together making a scanner business. This will be so much fun.
I am grateful that there are other souls on this planet that I'm able to share with and are able to share with me. All life's experiences are precious and we learn on our path. The exchange of energy with true sharing of self is such a beautiful and amazing process. Powerful. Exchanging of energy, energy is power, open and honest sharing of self. I know before for most of my life, I shared about other people because I didn't want to lose my energy, what I didn't know, and what was not taught to me, that sharing about myself, truly and honestly, fills me with more energy and power than hoarding all the energy inside me for myself. Energy gains power exponentially when shared. I know now that when I'm talking with another person about somebody that is not there is an illusion. It is not sharing my energy. It's not sharing any energy at all. It's a false sense of connection, that leaves me feeling empty and alone. It's this illusion that our society has been teaching for generations out of "politeness" and "decorum". When sharing how we truly feel honestly with others that accept and support our feelings just by holding sacred space for them, will do so much more for our society than any prisons or laws or government.
That's my 15 minutes.
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