1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Sleeping
4. Breathing
5. Supportive Friends
6. Unconditional Love
7. Happy Hour
8. Text messaging
9. Endless possibilities in every moment
10. The earth
I am tired today. I didn't sleep well last night and had a hard time getting to sleep. A hard time getting to bed. I had too much coffee yesterday. I can tell I'm addicted to the stuff again. It always tastes uncommonly good, even the crappy stuff at the office they give us for free. That was my downfall, it's free at work. Yes, let me blame my lack of willpower and default laziness on work giving it's employees a perk that a lot of companies don't give. Free coffee and tea. Now I'd be better off drinking tea. I'm usually drinking something hot because they keep the offices colder than I like. But the tea I would have to put the tea bag in the hot water (it comes out boiling hot out of one of those dispenser things, so that's convenient) and wait for it to steep and cool a bit before drinking. The coffee is in one of those thermos carafes and just pump it out and it's ready to go. I even only get half a cup and fill the rest up with hot water. And it still is tasting really good. I'm addicted. I'm also really tired today so this seems to be rambling around. I will wrap it up now. Love and Light.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Monday, April 8, 2013
4-8-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Therapy session
3. Sleeping
4. Dreaming and visions
5. Peace
6. Safe inside
7. Unconditional Love
8. My car running well
9. Walking and Breathing and Awareness
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
Yesterday during Quaker Meeting I had a vision. I'll try to describe it the best I can in words and know that it came to me in feelings, images, sensations, and knowings. It was the knowing that long ago there was no separation between Heaven and Earth. There was no difference between them, they were not created yet. And then out of that Oneness, Heaven and Earth were created. They were both of the Oneness and still felt the Oneness, the Universe they are held in, and they felt separated. They longed to communicate with each other, Heaven with Earth and Earth with Heaven. And a lot of thoughts came to me at the same time, different knowings and feelings of this story along different tracks and one track I was opening my chakras, like I'd been taught in meditation. Reach down into the earth and bring up earth energy to open them one by one starting with the base one. When reaching the crown and all of my chakras are open, I then let in Heaven's Light from above and Earth Energy from below and they connect in my heart chakra. It was this and feeling this, and feeling this openness and connection and communication, I realized all that is on the surface of the earth was created so that Heaven and Earth could connect with each other. Through people, trees, plants, animals, birds, dogs, all created naturally is how Heaven and Earth connect and communicate and love each other. I am at peace knowing this. Humans have the hardest time keeping this conduit of love open. Love and Light.
2. Therapy session
3. Sleeping
4. Dreaming and visions
5. Peace
6. Safe inside
7. Unconditional Love
8. My car running well
9. Walking and Breathing and Awareness
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
Yesterday during Quaker Meeting I had a vision. I'll try to describe it the best I can in words and know that it came to me in feelings, images, sensations, and knowings. It was the knowing that long ago there was no separation between Heaven and Earth. There was no difference between them, they were not created yet. And then out of that Oneness, Heaven and Earth were created. They were both of the Oneness and still felt the Oneness, the Universe they are held in, and they felt separated. They longed to communicate with each other, Heaven with Earth and Earth with Heaven. And a lot of thoughts came to me at the same time, different knowings and feelings of this story along different tracks and one track I was opening my chakras, like I'd been taught in meditation. Reach down into the earth and bring up earth energy to open them one by one starting with the base one. When reaching the crown and all of my chakras are open, I then let in Heaven's Light from above and Earth Energy from below and they connect in my heart chakra. It was this and feeling this, and feeling this openness and connection and communication, I realized all that is on the surface of the earth was created so that Heaven and Earth could connect with each other. Through people, trees, plants, animals, birds, dogs, all created naturally is how Heaven and Earth connect and communicate and love each other. I am at peace knowing this. Humans have the hardest time keeping this conduit of love open. Love and Light.
Friday, April 5, 2013
4-5-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Friday
3. Rain and thunderstorms
4. Physical and spiritual cleansing
5. Every new moment
6. Endless possibilities in every moment
7. Unconditional love
8. The Light
9. Connection
10. Art, drawing, coloring
I'm happy it is Friday. I'm feeling calm and peaceful. And also strangely unmotivated. I don't really want to do any work at work. I thought that when I'm calm and peaceful and centered, that I'd be able to work on projects in calm way, going through step by step and not with my normal anxiety or judgement wondering if I'm doing this step correctly and 5 steps ahead planning on what I'm going to be doing. I believe balance is the key word. There is this training and needing to be fully in the present moment, if I dive too deeply in the present moment with no thought to the next step, what's the point of me doing the step now to get to my goals. My goals don't exist in the present moment? Maybe I'm going too far with this or too literally. Maybe I'm to be fully in the present moment, engaging all of my capacity and ability in the present moment and my current task, while still being aware at the periphery of goals and my guided path ahead. Fear Pushes, Vision Pulls. Surrender to this path, and Dream of where I could go. Love and Light.
2. Friday
3. Rain and thunderstorms
4. Physical and spiritual cleansing
5. Every new moment
6. Endless possibilities in every moment
7. Unconditional love
8. The Light
9. Connection
10. Art, drawing, coloring
I'm happy it is Friday. I'm feeling calm and peaceful. And also strangely unmotivated. I don't really want to do any work at work. I thought that when I'm calm and peaceful and centered, that I'd be able to work on projects in calm way, going through step by step and not with my normal anxiety or judgement wondering if I'm doing this step correctly and 5 steps ahead planning on what I'm going to be doing. I believe balance is the key word. There is this training and needing to be fully in the present moment, if I dive too deeply in the present moment with no thought to the next step, what's the point of me doing the step now to get to my goals. My goals don't exist in the present moment? Maybe I'm going too far with this or too literally. Maybe I'm to be fully in the present moment, engaging all of my capacity and ability in the present moment and my current task, while still being aware at the periphery of goals and my guided path ahead. Fear Pushes, Vision Pulls. Surrender to this path, and Dream of where I could go. Love and Light.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
4-4-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Connection
3. Hug
4. My car running well
5. Being in my heart
6. Excitement
7. Unconditional Love
8. Silence
9. All my emotions
10. Honoring mine and others feelings
I've been taking the time before I do any job, like cleaning the kitchen, or folding the laundry, I take time to center myself, and move into my heart. Some might call it praying, some might call it a quick meditation. Quakers call it centering down. Me, I don't know if I have name for it yet. I stop become silent, check into my standing alignments from my Tai Chi practice, I let go of whatever else I was thinking or doing before. I try to get myself into this present moment and fully focused on what I'm about to work on so that I'm fully present with it. I also say out loud my intention and what exactly I'll be doing. For example, this morning I paused by my kitchen doorway, centered, and said aloud "I'm going into my sacred kitchen to prepare my breakfast and lunch, I'm preparing loving nourishment for myself." This is still very new to me, I've been doing this a couple of days, and I forget before a lot of tasks as I'm creating this as a new habit. I like it so far. Love and Light.
2. Connection
3. Hug
4. My car running well
5. Being in my heart
6. Excitement
7. Unconditional Love
8. Silence
9. All my emotions
10. Honoring mine and others feelings
I've been taking the time before I do any job, like cleaning the kitchen, or folding the laundry, I take time to center myself, and move into my heart. Some might call it praying, some might call it a quick meditation. Quakers call it centering down. Me, I don't know if I have name for it yet. I stop become silent, check into my standing alignments from my Tai Chi practice, I let go of whatever else I was thinking or doing before. I try to get myself into this present moment and fully focused on what I'm about to work on so that I'm fully present with it. I also say out loud my intention and what exactly I'll be doing. For example, this morning I paused by my kitchen doorway, centered, and said aloud "I'm going into my sacred kitchen to prepare my breakfast and lunch, I'm preparing loving nourishment for myself." This is still very new to me, I've been doing this a couple of days, and I forget before a lot of tasks as I'm creating this as a new habit. I like it so far. Love and Light.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
4-3-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Chanting
3. Meditation
4. Being transparent
5. Therapy session
6. Living in my heart
7. Endless possibilities in every moment
8. My car running well
9. Sacredness
10. Unconditional love
I woke up this morning and first thing (after snoozing for 5 times), I stood up and put my hands in prayer position and thanked my alarm for getting me up and thanked the time I have in the morning to create a sacredness around me for me to go through my day. This is something new for me. I needed to change how I was getting up because I was snoozing and getting up later and later, and getting to work later and later. My excuse was that nobody is paying attention or cares when I get to work. Which is true. I needed to be back in integrity with myself. This is a new process so that I get up with the first alarm, stand in gratitude and prayer/centeredness, feel connected to The Light, to everything. I am grateful for the Quaker retreat I was able to attend for 5 days. I feel I have shifted and I am more grounded on the earth and more open to the Light that flows through everything. Love and Light.
2. Chanting
3. Meditation
4. Being transparent
5. Therapy session
6. Living in my heart
7. Endless possibilities in every moment
8. My car running well
9. Sacredness
10. Unconditional love
I woke up this morning and first thing (after snoozing for 5 times), I stood up and put my hands in prayer position and thanked my alarm for getting me up and thanked the time I have in the morning to create a sacredness around me for me to go through my day. This is something new for me. I needed to change how I was getting up because I was snoozing and getting up later and later, and getting to work later and later. My excuse was that nobody is paying attention or cares when I get to work. Which is true. I needed to be back in integrity with myself. This is a new process so that I get up with the first alarm, stand in gratitude and prayer/centeredness, feel connected to The Light, to everything. I am grateful for the Quaker retreat I was able to attend for 5 days. I feel I have shifted and I am more grounded on the earth and more open to the Light that flows through everything. Love and Light.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
4-2-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Sacredness
3. Color Correction tools
4. My car running well
5. Noble friends
6. Learning new things
7. Hugs
8. Unconditional Love
9. Relaxation
10. Silence
I learned Color Correction through some really good tutorials on Lynda.com. I am so grateful to have this explained as I had not been paying attention to my lighting when I was shooting last month. I could give a whole story and excuses as to why I shot it without fixing the lighting. Straightforwardly, I was grumpy and I didn't take the time to bother with it. I was in self-sabotage mode, so I sabotaged myself. I felt vulnerable when I set up the camera and shot and didn't want to move the people to a better lighted area, because I picked the first area without thinking about it first. Anyway, I looked at the footage and was dreading having to reschedule with the people to shoot them again, I didn't want to do that. So I am very grateful to learning color correction and the steps that made the process easily understandable and easy to do. My footage looks much better. Love and Light.
2. Sacredness
3. Color Correction tools
4. My car running well
5. Noble friends
6. Learning new things
7. Hugs
8. Unconditional Love
9. Relaxation
10. Silence
I learned Color Correction through some really good tutorials on Lynda.com. I am so grateful to have this explained as I had not been paying attention to my lighting when I was shooting last month. I could give a whole story and excuses as to why I shot it without fixing the lighting. Straightforwardly, I was grumpy and I didn't take the time to bother with it. I was in self-sabotage mode, so I sabotaged myself. I felt vulnerable when I set up the camera and shot and didn't want to move the people to a better lighted area, because I picked the first area without thinking about it first. Anyway, I looked at the footage and was dreading having to reschedule with the people to shoot them again, I didn't want to do that. So I am very grateful to learning color correction and the steps that made the process easily understandable and easy to do. My footage looks much better. Love and Light.
Monday, April 1, 2013
4-1-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. The Light, holding me, loving me
4. Knowing I am always safe
5. My hands
6. My feet
7. Being in this present moment
8. Sharing openly with integrity
9. Unconditional Love
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I found myself slipping backwards as I drove closer to home away from my spiritual retreat. I found myself turning away from Spirit/The Light out of habit as I got home. That's how I left the place I live, turned away and severely depressed and struggling. I watched myself go back to how I had been when I left because that's that habit that I formed in that place. I have been working hard to keep my connection to God open. I need to create sacred practice of keeping myself open to the Light in my home and in my office. That is my work. That is my priority. All else will fall into place. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. The Light, holding me, loving me
4. Knowing I am always safe
5. My hands
6. My feet
7. Being in this present moment
8. Sharing openly with integrity
9. Unconditional Love
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I found myself slipping backwards as I drove closer to home away from my spiritual retreat. I found myself turning away from Spirit/The Light out of habit as I got home. That's how I left the place I live, turned away and severely depressed and struggling. I watched myself go back to how I had been when I left because that's that habit that I formed in that place. I have been working hard to keep my connection to God open. I need to create sacred practice of keeping myself open to the Light in my home and in my office. That is my work. That is my priority. All else will fall into place. Love and Light.
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