1. My adorable dog
2. Flexible schedule at work
3. Music
4. Chanting
5. Sleeping
6. My car running well
7. Unconditional Love
8. The Light
9. Sushi
10. Friends
I feel lighter today and feel I have more Light shining through me. Interesting that months ago when I was in a very dark place inside myself, depressed, and I felt desperate for friends, for someone to take me out of my darkness, there was not much interaction with my friends. There were connections and my noble friends would suggest how I could take care of myself. I can see now, looking back, that I chose to stay in my dark place. I did work and get myself out of it. Now that I'm open to more of my own Light, I have several requests and dates set for getting together with friends. They are always there, my friends, just like the Light. It was hard to remember when I was in the dark and couldn't see The Light, that the Light always knows where I am. Love and Light.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
4-17-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. All my emotions
4. Sharing honestly
5. My wonderfully creative job
6. Journaling
7. Silence
8. Unconditional Love
9. Forgiveness
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
Today was a day. It started out with issues dumped on me as I walked through the door. My boss trying to talk to me about an issue (that could have waited) while I was live switching and controlling 4 cameras at an event (very hard to do even without trying to hold a conversation). After being brain fried all morning, I had trouble getting my brain to work to be able to teach my intern how to edit a documentary together. And then a therapy session after all that. My day was amazing. And there are endless possibilities in every moment. AND endless perspectives in every moment. I was definitely heading down the belief track of "bad day today" that leads to the pit of "life sucks". My turning point was therapy. I decided to be open and willing, and an amazing opening and revelation happened for me. I had to slog through some hurt and tears and fear to get to it, and I stayed open and willing. I need to bring that openness and willingness to every experience. I need to express (if only to myself) when I'm scared and hurt. A huge weight has been lifted off of me today, and I am grateful. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. All my emotions
4. Sharing honestly
5. My wonderfully creative job
6. Journaling
7. Silence
8. Unconditional Love
9. Forgiveness
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
Today was a day. It started out with issues dumped on me as I walked through the door. My boss trying to talk to me about an issue (that could have waited) while I was live switching and controlling 4 cameras at an event (very hard to do even without trying to hold a conversation). After being brain fried all morning, I had trouble getting my brain to work to be able to teach my intern how to edit a documentary together. And then a therapy session after all that. My day was amazing. And there are endless possibilities in every moment. AND endless perspectives in every moment. I was definitely heading down the belief track of "bad day today" that leads to the pit of "life sucks". My turning point was therapy. I decided to be open and willing, and an amazing opening and revelation happened for me. I had to slog through some hurt and tears and fear to get to it, and I stayed open and willing. I need to bring that openness and willingness to every experience. I need to express (if only to myself) when I'm scared and hurt. A huge weight has been lifted off of me today, and I am grateful. Love and Light.
4-16-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Endless possibilities in every moment
3. Easy hair
4. Music
5. Friends
6. Breathwork
7. Creativity
8.
First time I was unable to come up with 10 things. Depressed. Love and Light.
2. Endless possibilities in every moment
3. Easy hair
4. Music
5. Friends
6. Breathwork
7. Creativity
8.
First time I was unable to come up with 10 things. Depressed. Love and Light.
Monday, April 15, 2013
4-15-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My brother
3. My car running well
4. Endless possibilities in every moment
5. Talent and ability
6. Unconditional Love
7. The Light
8. Meditation
9. Chanting
10. Nature, trees, sun, moon
I'm anxious today. I overslept this morning. I was an hour and a half late, and it doesn't bother anybody here. So, I guess I really wasn't late. I'm anxious, I have an interview to shoot later this afternoon. It's not an interview, it's a customer testimonial. I need to get the customer comfortable being in front of the camera and then talk about my company in a positive way. I let them talk and then I need to look at it later and edit it down to 30 seconds for a commercial. I need to come from a place of love with this. If I am anxious, I am coming from a place of fear. I'm afraid I won't be good enough, I'm afraid that the customer will be afraid and not look good in front of the camera. I need to come from place of love. I love what I do. I'm grateful my boss is coming with me to run the camera so I don't have to do everything. I love that we are shooting in a park out in nature. Fill myself with love and let my heart lead me and the customer will be calm and all will go well. Refocus my perspective on what I do all day. Love and Light.
2. My brother
3. My car running well
4. Endless possibilities in every moment
5. Talent and ability
6. Unconditional Love
7. The Light
8. Meditation
9. Chanting
10. Nature, trees, sun, moon
I'm anxious today. I overslept this morning. I was an hour and a half late, and it doesn't bother anybody here. So, I guess I really wasn't late. I'm anxious, I have an interview to shoot later this afternoon. It's not an interview, it's a customer testimonial. I need to get the customer comfortable being in front of the camera and then talk about my company in a positive way. I let them talk and then I need to look at it later and edit it down to 30 seconds for a commercial. I need to come from a place of love with this. If I am anxious, I am coming from a place of fear. I'm afraid I won't be good enough, I'm afraid that the customer will be afraid and not look good in front of the camera. I need to come from place of love. I love what I do. I'm grateful my boss is coming with me to run the camera so I don't have to do everything. I love that we are shooting in a park out in nature. Fill myself with love and let my heart lead me and the customer will be calm and all will go well. Refocus my perspective on what I do all day. Love and Light.
Sunday, April 14, 2013
4-14-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Quakers
3. Chanting
4. Meditation
5. Nature, wind, sun, moon, trees
6. Washing machine and dryer in my house
7. Creating sacred space
8. Innocence
9. Unconditional Love
10. That of the Light in every person and every thing.
In meditation this morning, and again at Meeting today, I struggled with connecting to the Light. I struggled to feel Spirit flow through me, to feel the unconditional Love of the Universe, of God. I was resisting it. That seemed very strange to me that I was resisting was I very desperately wanted, connection with The Light. To know and connect with that of God within me. I resisted. It didn't make sense. I was feeling angry and resistant, I felt as the child having a temper tantrum because she is so very tired. So very tired trying to understand this world and people, trying to understand the pain and terror that she grew up within. I let go, I let myself feel anger and the pain and terror that came up behind it, I let go. And I heard a voice saying one word over and over: "Innocence, Innocence, Innocence " To connect with the Light that is in all I need to let go of my past having a terrifying grip on my present moments. Not forget. Never forget. I need to let go and step into the present with my Innocence. With fresh eyes and an open heart to feel compassion and love now in this moment. For a long time I felt I had lost my innocence at a very young age. I had believed it was one of those things that when it was lost, I could never get it back. I've learned that innocence is a feeling, well not quite, more like an openness, not quite that either, maybe the better words are a way to feel open. I have innocence, I embody innocence whenever I choose to look at something fresh, when I choose to experience something or witness an experience with no judgement whatsoever. NONE. Try it, it's not easy. Catch yourself as soon as you have a feeling or thought that says this is good or bad, this is beautiful or ugly, if you have any thoughts or feelings that start to separate the experience from what it is into boxes or categories or definitions. Maybe this is what the mystical masters mean to have "a beginners mind". Innocence. Love and Light.
2. Quakers
3. Chanting
4. Meditation
5. Nature, wind, sun, moon, trees
6. Washing machine and dryer in my house
7. Creating sacred space
8. Innocence
9. Unconditional Love
10. That of the Light in every person and every thing.
In meditation this morning, and again at Meeting today, I struggled with connecting to the Light. I struggled to feel Spirit flow through me, to feel the unconditional Love of the Universe, of God. I was resisting it. That seemed very strange to me that I was resisting was I very desperately wanted, connection with The Light. To know and connect with that of God within me. I resisted. It didn't make sense. I was feeling angry and resistant, I felt as the child having a temper tantrum because she is so very tired. So very tired trying to understand this world and people, trying to understand the pain and terror that she grew up within. I let go, I let myself feel anger and the pain and terror that came up behind it, I let go. And I heard a voice saying one word over and over: "Innocence, Innocence, Innocence " To connect with the Light that is in all I need to let go of my past having a terrifying grip on my present moments. Not forget. Never forget. I need to let go and step into the present with my Innocence. With fresh eyes and an open heart to feel compassion and love now in this moment. For a long time I felt I had lost my innocence at a very young age. I had believed it was one of those things that when it was lost, I could never get it back. I've learned that innocence is a feeling, well not quite, more like an openness, not quite that either, maybe the better words are a way to feel open. I have innocence, I embody innocence whenever I choose to look at something fresh, when I choose to experience something or witness an experience with no judgement whatsoever. NONE. Try it, it's not easy. Catch yourself as soon as you have a feeling or thought that says this is good or bad, this is beautiful or ugly, if you have any thoughts or feelings that start to separate the experience from what it is into boxes or categories or definitions. Maybe this is what the mystical masters mean to have "a beginners mind". Innocence. Love and Light.
4-13-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Sleeping
3. Chanting
4. Meditating
5. Unconditional Love
6. Creating sacred space
7. Thunderstorms and rainy days
8. Pictures, drawing, coloring
9. The Light
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I made the list and left it up on my computer all yesterday. Didn't find anything interesting to say. Love and Light
2. Sleeping
3. Chanting
4. Meditating
5. Unconditional Love
6. Creating sacred space
7. Thunderstorms and rainy days
8. Pictures, drawing, coloring
9. The Light
10. Endless possibilities in every moment
I made the list and left it up on my computer all yesterday. Didn't find anything interesting to say. Love and Light
Friday, April 12, 2013
4-12-13 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My brother
3. My car running well
4. Sleeping
5. Headphones
6. Music
7. All my emotions
8. Honor
9. Light and Love
10. My body, fingers that can type, feet that can take me where I want to go
After several days in a row of getting up with my first or second alarm, this morning I had a snoozefest. Hitting the snooze for almost an hour and a half. I skipped my morning rituals (chanting, meditating, journaling) as I didn't want to have to stay late at work tonight. I intend to do them when I get home from work and set my intention that they will set the tone for a very cleansing spiritual evening and weekend. I feel exhausted right now. I set my intention to have an enjoyable, productive day at work and remember to take a lot of deep breaths. Love and Light.
2. My brother
3. My car running well
4. Sleeping
5. Headphones
6. Music
7. All my emotions
8. Honor
9. Light and Love
10. My body, fingers that can type, feet that can take me where I want to go
After several days in a row of getting up with my first or second alarm, this morning I had a snoozefest. Hitting the snooze for almost an hour and a half. I skipped my morning rituals (chanting, meditating, journaling) as I didn't want to have to stay late at work tonight. I intend to do them when I get home from work and set my intention that they will set the tone for a very cleansing spiritual evening and weekend. I feel exhausted right now. I set my intention to have an enjoyable, productive day at work and remember to take a lot of deep breaths. Love and Light.
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