1. My adorable dog
2. Release hose and pillow
3. Music
4. The Light
5. Unconditional Love
6. Breathing
7. Creativity and talent
8. The rain and thunder
9. Drumming Circle
10. The Light
I want to run away from it all. Run north in to some mountain forest and disappear. Have my whole world be completely different. No cars, no cell phones that do everything but wash windows or your laundry, no flourescent lighting, no restaurants. A friend of mine is sad and I'm holding her in the Light as best I can, and I'm having a rough day on top of it. One of those days where I tell myself I'm safe and I have a real hard time feeling it. And I keep going. Love and Light.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
8-15-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Silence, especially at work
3. Music and Chanting
4. My car running well
5. Therapy
6. Sleep
7. Journaling
8. Fun projects at work
9. Unconditional Love
10. Friends
My office mate has today off, which means the TV that we share will be off all day. YAY! I am busy with many projects at work, and staying focused managing multiple projects with overlapping deadlines can be a bit confusing or overwhelming for me. I am going to do my best and stay focused on one task at a time. It will be what it will be. I give myself permission to be human today. Love and Light.
2. Silence, especially at work
3. Music and Chanting
4. My car running well
5. Therapy
6. Sleep
7. Journaling
8. Fun projects at work
9. Unconditional Love
10. Friends
My office mate has today off, which means the TV that we share will be off all day. YAY! I am busy with many projects at work, and staying focused managing multiple projects with overlapping deadlines can be a bit confusing or overwhelming for me. I am going to do my best and stay focused on one task at a time. It will be what it will be. I give myself permission to be human today. Love and Light.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
8-14-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. A nice patina forming on my wok
4. My creativity and ability to create and imagine
5. Music
6. Silence
7. Chanting
8. Permission to be human
9. Unconditional Love
10. Friends
Meetings and appointments are being moved around on me this week. I'm going with the flow as best as possible. I also have a lot of projects at work. I'm not great at keeping on top of things. I'm good at looking like I've come through when I know that I could have done more if I wasn't avoiding being here in the present moment. It's hard for me to get any work done when I'm imagining another place and time. I am here in this place. It is today. It is time now. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. A nice patina forming on my wok
4. My creativity and ability to create and imagine
5. Music
6. Silence
7. Chanting
8. Permission to be human
9. Unconditional Love
10. Friends
Meetings and appointments are being moved around on me this week. I'm going with the flow as best as possible. I also have a lot of projects at work. I'm not great at keeping on top of things. I'm good at looking like I've come through when I know that I could have done more if I wasn't avoiding being here in the present moment. It's hard for me to get any work done when I'm imagining another place and time. I am here in this place. It is today. It is time now. Love and Light.
Monday, August 13, 2012
8-13-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful job
4. Friends and support
5. Music
6. Chanting
7. Art, Creativity, Creating art
8. Unconditional Love
9. The Light and being open to let it in
10. Silence
When I let go and open up spiritually to let the Light in, I can breathe. Letting the Light in then touches and expands my own Light. When I was much younger this was dangerous for me to do. Now, it is something essential I must do for myself. I need to shine my Light. I need to do what is coming from inside and create what I am led to create. What I create are gifts for the world. It doesn't matter if people like what I create or not. It is a gift, given with no strings attached. A gift put out in a public place for people to look at, pick up, or ignore. Whatever moves them. I only need to place the gift where it can be seen, then it is up to others. I've done what I need to do. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful job
4. Friends and support
5. Music
6. Chanting
7. Art, Creativity, Creating art
8. Unconditional Love
9. The Light and being open to let it in
10. Silence
When I let go and open up spiritually to let the Light in, I can breathe. Letting the Light in then touches and expands my own Light. When I was much younger this was dangerous for me to do. Now, it is something essential I must do for myself. I need to shine my Light. I need to do what is coming from inside and create what I am led to create. What I create are gifts for the world. It doesn't matter if people like what I create or not. It is a gift, given with no strings attached. A gift put out in a public place for people to look at, pick up, or ignore. Whatever moves them. I only need to place the gift where it can be seen, then it is up to others. I've done what I need to do. Love and Light.
Saturday, August 11, 2012
8-11-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Children playing
4. Music
5. Movies
6. Friends
7. Uncondtional Love
8. The Light that is in everyperson and everything
9. Choices and responsibility
10. My computer
I'm doing this list in the evening. I'm usually doing it in the morning. It's funny, I still put things on the list like I was starting my day when I had this great opportunity to put things on my list to be grateful for that already happened today. Now I'm thinking about it, I don't know. I'm grateful for places like His House that provide a help and support and a family atmosphere for kids that have no where else to go. I'm having a hard time coming up with things to be grateful for. I'm having trouble with eating, I'm on this new food plan and there seems to be a lot of food on it and I feel like I'm always thinking about my plan, or cooking, or eating. I know it's a healthier relationship with food than I've had in a long time. I'm very uncomfortable. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Children playing
4. Music
5. Movies
6. Friends
7. Uncondtional Love
8. The Light that is in everyperson and everything
9. Choices and responsibility
10. My computer
I'm doing this list in the evening. I'm usually doing it in the morning. It's funny, I still put things on the list like I was starting my day when I had this great opportunity to put things on my list to be grateful for that already happened today. Now I'm thinking about it, I don't know. I'm grateful for places like His House that provide a help and support and a family atmosphere for kids that have no where else to go. I'm having a hard time coming up with things to be grateful for. I'm having trouble with eating, I'm on this new food plan and there seems to be a lot of food on it and I feel like I'm always thinking about my plan, or cooking, or eating. I know it's a healthier relationship with food than I've had in a long time. I'm very uncomfortable. Love and Light.
Friday, August 10, 2012
8-10-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. An evening at home
3. My car running well
4. Choices and responsibility
5. Music
6. Breathing
7. Big puffy white clouds
8. Unconditional Love
9. Noble Friends
10. The Light.
I need to let go and relax. I'm so tense. I catch myself all tensed up, my mouth clenched, my shoulders in my ears, even feeling my toes trying to grip the inside soles of my shoes. Relax, Relax, Relax. Today would be a good day for a guided meditation. Let go. I'm holding on so tightly to everything, let go. I tense myself up so much I can't breathe. I would like to be a puffy white cloud. Drifting on the breeze, floating. Letting the edges of myself drift and flow and even to the point where my edges are blurry. I am a cloud and the wind can go through me without tearing me apart, and I can expand and reach almost until I am transparent and I am still a cloud. Love and Light.
2. An evening at home
3. My car running well
4. Choices and responsibility
5. Music
6. Breathing
7. Big puffy white clouds
8. Unconditional Love
9. Noble Friends
10. The Light.
I need to let go and relax. I'm so tense. I catch myself all tensed up, my mouth clenched, my shoulders in my ears, even feeling my toes trying to grip the inside soles of my shoes. Relax, Relax, Relax. Today would be a good day for a guided meditation. Let go. I'm holding on so tightly to everything, let go. I tense myself up so much I can't breathe. I would like to be a puffy white cloud. Drifting on the breeze, floating. Letting the edges of myself drift and flow and even to the point where my edges are blurry. I am a cloud and the wind can go through me without tearing me apart, and I can expand and reach almost until I am transparent and I am still a cloud. Love and Light.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
8-9-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Sleeping
4. Breathing
5. Music
6. Creativity
7. Choices and responsibility
8. My wonderful job
9. This new day
10. Unconditional Love
I've had asthma almost my entire life. Serious asthma. I didn't know what it was like to take a clear breath. Not until a few years ago. I have done a lot of personal therapy, mental health counseling, and I finally was able to face terrifying memories of my childhood. And after an intense session, I was amazed at how clearly I was breathing. It was gone, my asthma was gone. After that, it has come back, last year with a vengeance and I ended up going into the hospital. And then I was clear again for a few months, and now it is back again. I can almost feel it switch in me. I can feel the shift, almost like a muscle tightening up. Kind of like a muscle cramping and I can't make it relax. Right in my chest, I feel a tightening and I'm doing all I can to relax it, but it's not listening to me. It makes sense that I would tighten up my breathing and fall into asthma when I'm about to step fully into my life. Just another way I sabotage myself and keep me exactly where I am. I'm going to step into my life anyway. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Sleeping
4. Breathing
5. Music
6. Creativity
7. Choices and responsibility
8. My wonderful job
9. This new day
10. Unconditional Love
I've had asthma almost my entire life. Serious asthma. I didn't know what it was like to take a clear breath. Not until a few years ago. I have done a lot of personal therapy, mental health counseling, and I finally was able to face terrifying memories of my childhood. And after an intense session, I was amazed at how clearly I was breathing. It was gone, my asthma was gone. After that, it has come back, last year with a vengeance and I ended up going into the hospital. And then I was clear again for a few months, and now it is back again. I can almost feel it switch in me. I can feel the shift, almost like a muscle tightening up. Kind of like a muscle cramping and I can't make it relax. Right in my chest, I feel a tightening and I'm doing all I can to relax it, but it's not listening to me. It makes sense that I would tighten up my breathing and fall into asthma when I'm about to step fully into my life. Just another way I sabotage myself and keep me exactly where I am. I'm going to step into my life anyway. Love and Light.
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