7-17-12 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Hugs
3.  Commercial shoot tonight
4.  My car running well
5.  Unconditional Love
6.  Being held in the Light
7.  Being of service
8.  Silence
9.  Music and chanting
10.  The sun and the earth

I'm very tired today.  I had very active sleeping last night, being up in the middle of the night and then dreams where I was very active.  I need a mental health day off of work.  I only have 3 days to last me until the end of the year.  So, here I am at work, staring at my computer screen.  My whole body and brain feels sluggish.  Does this sound like I'm whining? Like I'm complaining?  It does, doesn't it.  Sorry about that.  I will experience and engage in living today to the best of my ability.  Love and Light.

7-16-12 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Love and Light
3.  Gentle lessons
4.  Chanting
5.  Meditation
6.  Music
7.  My car running well
8.  Use of the big room at FPGC
9.  Friends
10.  Endless possibilities in every moment

May I connect with my heart, my love and my faith today.  May I feel my soul expand to be close to the surface to be touched by my life experiences today.  May I engage in living today.  May I feel the support of the earth, providing all selflessly, at all times.  May I know that every person matters, as I matter also.  May I know that all my emotions are important and honored by me.  May I have faith that all experiences are opportunities to heal.  May I feel the responsibility of my choices.  Love and Light.

7-15-12 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Clouds
3.  Chanting
4.  Music
5.  Friends and Connection
6.  Quaker Meeting
7.  My car running well
8.  Endless possibilities in every moment
9.  Choices and responsibility
10.  Unconditional Love

I need to leave for Meeting in just a couple of minutes.  I played around on the internet looking up Native American Music rather than finish this blog for today.  And now I'm out of time to write anything more than a couple of lines.  That's "choices and responsibility" for you.  I'm choosing to make this a short amount of time because I do have the choice open to come back to this later in the day and have more time to write.  I choose to be pressured right now.  Love and Light.

7-13-12 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Candles
3.  My car running well
4.  My warm, soft, comfy jacket
5.  Unconditional Love
6.  Acceptance
7.  Permission to be human
8.  The Light
9.  Hands and feet and legs and arms
10.  Choices and responsibility

I'm very exhausted today.  I didn't sleep well last night.  If I had any days to take, I would have taken a day off from work today.  I'm okay.  I'm safe, I'm loved, I honor all my experiences.  I am here in this present moment, feeling tired.  I give myself permission today to be human. To be flawed. To be not functioning at my full capacity.  My batteries were not charged last night.  I am here.  It is a new day.  Love and Light.

7-12-12 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Music
3.  Chanting
4.  My car running well
5.  All my emotions
6.  Engaging in life
7.  Telling my truth
8.  Compassion
9.  Unconditional Love
10.  The Light

I'm having a rough day.  It surprises me now that there are still things in my past that I know were there, but didn't allow myself to look at them.  I didn't allow myself to acknowledge certain experiences.  It's kind of like a card catalogue.  I have all the books (full memories) in my library, but I was only referencing the card catalogue whenever I would think of certain things.  Yesterday in my therapy session I was reciting my card catalogue and then I was pulling the books out and looking at them.  Today is a day where I am amazed at how well I'm able to function, at my job, driving my car, talking with others.  Am I protecting them or me by not showing my true emotions today?  Emotions about something in my past I don't know if aquaintences would understand.  I know my close, noble friends understand.  Love and Light.

7-11-12 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  All my emotions
3.  Sleeping
4.  Thunderstorms
5.  Therapy session
6.  Music
7.  Creativity
8.  My wonderful job and work
9.  Choices and responsibility
10.  Unconditional Love

I felt warm and loved and safe while eating my eggs and toast this morning.  I can see how people could attach that feeling to the food they are eating and think that they would feel that way again by eating that particular food again.  It wasn't the food creating the warm and loving experience.  It was me creating it.  And I know it's not the food because I've eating the exact same thing everymorning for about a month now.  And a lot of those times while eating I felt fear and anger and sadness.  Emotions are interesting, an experience can bring up emotions in me, sometimes those emotions I didn't expect or are surprised by.  Also, I can change an experience by bringing emotions into it.  This is the constant life circle, allowing life experiences from outside in to change me, and bringing myself out to the world to change life experiences.  Breathe in and back out again.  Love and Light.

7-10-12 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Engaging fully in life
3.  My wonderful job
4.  Creativity and talent
5.  Choices and responsibility
6.  Creating the experience to validate my new beliefs
7.  My warm jacket
8.  The rain
9.  A new day
10.  Unconditional Love

I saw beautiful clouds this morning rimmed with pink and yellow shades.  And I ran to my car through a downpour, grinning and giggling.  I am wrapped in my warm sweatshirt jacket at work.  I am safe.  I am safe to create, to explore creating.  I am safe to hear criticism.  I am strong to discern that criticism.  I know what it is I want to create.  I know what is good and what is good enough.  I am living.  I am alive.  Love and Light.