1-31-10 grateful for today

1. My Vision Board
2. A nice cool cloudy day
3. My journal
4. Garageband
5. My creative abilities
6. Tea
7. Money to pay my bills
8. Chanting and meditation
9. This blog
10. Loving myself

Tea is on the list, number 6. I debated it because I'm on a tea drinking kick. I'm worried about getting addicted to tea. Let me fill you in on some history. I used to be a HUGE coffee drinker, a pot a day coffee drinker. I would go to bed at and be able to put myself to sleep faster by telling myself, "the faster I go to sleep, the sooner I can get up and have coffee." It was an addiction that I allowed to alter my mood and I would do things that seem ridiculous now. Like visiting friends up north in the middle of winter, getting up before my hosts and not being able to find coffee in the house and walking ten blocks in a snow storm to find horrible gas station coffee. And being from Florida, not having the proper winter clothes either.

One day a year and a half ago, I woke up, went to work and realized halfway through the day that I didn't have any coffee. It was strange, I didn't crave any coffee. And even more strangely, no caffeine withdrawal headache. My first reaction was fear, must drink coffee NOW!! However, I calmed myself and sat through that initial feeling without taking any action and just let myself not have any coffee. I told myself, as soon as the withdrawal or need kicks in, I'll go get coffee. It's been over a year and a half. I will let you know that I did participate in an intense personal transformation retreat the weekend before the not-drinking-coffee phenomenon.

So, now Tea is on my list. I've been having it every morning and throughout the days for the past week. I'm scared it will turn into another addiction and I'll be that person that HAS to have tea in the morning. I'll let you in on some more personal information, my dad is a have-to-have-coffee person and my mom is a have-to-have-tea person. There is also that I-don't-want-to-turn-into-my-parents fear also.

Well, that's my 15 minutes.