3-10-10 grateful for today

1. My adorable dog
2. My budget
3. Letting go of needing to have it NOW
4. Great friends
5. My best friend coming for a visit
6. Choices, endless choices
7. infinite possibilities
9. Opportunities
10. LOVE!

I'm getting back into being connected to feeling the wonderfulness of life and living. Every experience, every moment is a gift. The weather here has been beautiful! Just gorgeous. I have choices to live my life in the way that I feel naturally guided. I had been trying to force a path onto myself. There is a retreat that I've been going to every year and this year financial commitments are being honored. I had been scheming and budget crunching trying to be able to force the finances for the retreat this year. I realized that my focus on the money has been blocking my energy, my flow, my love. It's been blocking my enjoyment of life and everyday. I realize I've been working on my budget and not on my growth. Yes, a budget is helpful for me to be responsible for my money flow. I need to realize that it is a FLOW and it is linked with my energy and LOVE flow. So, I needed to let go of making sure I'd be in the retreat this year and trust that if I am meant to be, the abundance and path will appear to me. And I needed to remember that money started out as tokens of love and appreciation. I need to let my love flow and enjoy and celebrate each day and share my enjoyment and love with others.

I just remembered I wrote one of my items down this morning to put on my list: I'm grateful for my Vision Board. And I'm still working on my vision board since the last week in December. It is really big, 3 feet by 3 feet. I have a TON of pictures and phrases cut out to put on it. Everything won't fit, there is way too much. So, every day or every few days I spend some time on it, sorting through phrases, pasting some things on. It made me think of my Grandma who always had one of those big difficult puzzles set up on her dining room table. We would come to visit and study the pieces and put a few in for her, or help sort. That's what this vision board has turned into for me. And it's inspiring because it is inspiring phrases and pictures. It's my vision for myself. What I want to work on in me, in my business. To know that working on things even just a little bit every day gets me closer to accomplishing things.

That's my 15 minutes!

1-31-10 grateful for today

1. My Vision Board
2. A nice cool cloudy day
3. My journal
4. Garageband
5. My creative abilities
6. Tea
7. Money to pay my bills
8. Chanting and meditation
9. This blog
10. Loving myself

Tea is on the list, number 6. I debated it because I'm on a tea drinking kick. I'm worried about getting addicted to tea. Let me fill you in on some history. I used to be a HUGE coffee drinker, a pot a day coffee drinker. I would go to bed at and be able to put myself to sleep faster by telling myself, "the faster I go to sleep, the sooner I can get up and have coffee." It was an addiction that I allowed to alter my mood and I would do things that seem ridiculous now. Like visiting friends up north in the middle of winter, getting up before my hosts and not being able to find coffee in the house and walking ten blocks in a snow storm to find horrible gas station coffee. And being from Florida, not having the proper winter clothes either.

One day a year and a half ago, I woke up, went to work and realized halfway through the day that I didn't have any coffee. It was strange, I didn't crave any coffee. And even more strangely, no caffeine withdrawal headache. My first reaction was fear, must drink coffee NOW!! However, I calmed myself and sat through that initial feeling without taking any action and just let myself not have any coffee. I told myself, as soon as the withdrawal or need kicks in, I'll go get coffee. It's been over a year and a half. I will let you know that I did participate in an intense personal transformation retreat the weekend before the not-drinking-coffee phenomenon.

So, now Tea is on my list. I've been having it every morning and throughout the days for the past week. I'm scared it will turn into another addiction and I'll be that person that HAS to have tea in the morning. I'll let you in on some more personal information, my dad is a have-to-have-coffee person and my mom is a have-to-have-tea person. There is also that I-don't-want-to-turn-into-my-parents fear also.

Well, that's my 15 minutes.