1. Chanting
2. Meditation
3. My car running well
4. Eating
5. My adorable dog
6. Abundance
7. Endless possibilities in every moment
8. Choices
9. Emotions
10. Love
A Monday morning and I realize I spent the weekend relaxing. My old pattern of behavior would be to start beating myself up now. My new behavior is to be grateful I relaxed and took care of myself emotionally. I was sad and angry and full of shame over the weekend and I took time to release and extinguish those emotions. I do see an old pattern of procrastination of not doing the physical things to take care of myself. Today is a new day and this morning is a new beginning.
Love and light.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
2-26-11 grateful for today
1. Music
2. Relaxing breezes in the sun
3. Choices
4. Awareness
5. Happiness
6. Life experiences
7. Flowing and enjoying the flow
8. Noble friends
9. Abundance
10. Creativity
I am happy and mellow and relaxed today. I have beautiful music playing. There is a wonderful breeze gently flowing through the apartment. I have a more fruits and vegetables in my fridge than ever before. I am filled with love and joy. My struggle (if I think about it) is how to balance this flowing relaxation of doing only what I'm compelled to do, with doing the things that are necessary . . . like vacuuming. I shall meditate on that.
Love and light.
2. Relaxing breezes in the sun
3. Choices
4. Awareness
5. Happiness
6. Life experiences
7. Flowing and enjoying the flow
8. Noble friends
9. Abundance
10. Creativity
I am happy and mellow and relaxed today. I have beautiful music playing. There is a wonderful breeze gently flowing through the apartment. I have a more fruits and vegetables in my fridge than ever before. I am filled with love and joy. My struggle (if I think about it) is how to balance this flowing relaxation of doing only what I'm compelled to do, with doing the things that are necessary . . . like vacuuming. I shall meditate on that.
Love and light.
Friday, February 25, 2011
2-25-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Choices, choices, choices
3. endless opportunities in every moment
4. My heating pad
5. Noble unconditionally loving friends
6. The power of tools
7. Life's experiences
8. All my emotions
9. My computer
10. My car running well
There's not much extra time to write too much on my thoughts this morning. I had a hard time coming up with the items on my list today. I have choices. I forget that one sometimes. I feel like the simplest choices are hard for me today. I'm safe. I'm on my path.
Love and light
2. Choices, choices, choices
3. endless opportunities in every moment
4. My heating pad
5. Noble unconditionally loving friends
6. The power of tools
7. Life's experiences
8. All my emotions
9. My computer
10. My car running well
There's not much extra time to write too much on my thoughts this morning. I had a hard time coming up with the items on my list today. I have choices. I forget that one sometimes. I feel like the simplest choices are hard for me today. I'm safe. I'm on my path.
Love and light
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
2-23-11 grateful for today
1. New experiences on my path
2. New, more complete perspectives on everyday experiences
3. Being present in the moment
4. My adorable dog
5. Acupuncture
6. Eating
7. Breathing
8. Choices and opportunities
9. Love
10. Healing
Today I will be working on extinguishing my fear and shame. An everyday necessary activity that I turned into punishment of myself. Eating. I continued the patterns I learned and created from my childhood. There wasn't much I could do as a kid. Putting things in my mouth was horrible and I made eating one of those horrible things. 35 years later and I'm strong enough and faced my beliefs last night. And I'm strong enough to face them every meal. I am relearning to nurture and care for myself with food. I am experiencing what having food in my mouth feels like, what chewing and tasting is all about. I never was present or aware before. I did the psychological equivalent of closing my eyes and holding my nose and shoveling the food in and completing the evil deed with as much detachment. It's where survival instinct took over and it didn't matter what I ate, just that I survived. I would eat until the food tasted as disgusting as I felt. I would eat not knowing what full or hungry felt like or not know how much. Now, I am strong to choose and be aware of what goes into my mouth. I am safe. Finally, I am safe.
Love and light.
2. New, more complete perspectives on everyday experiences
3. Being present in the moment
4. My adorable dog
5. Acupuncture
6. Eating
7. Breathing
8. Choices and opportunities
9. Love
10. Healing
Today I will be working on extinguishing my fear and shame. An everyday necessary activity that I turned into punishment of myself. Eating. I continued the patterns I learned and created from my childhood. There wasn't much I could do as a kid. Putting things in my mouth was horrible and I made eating one of those horrible things. 35 years later and I'm strong enough and faced my beliefs last night. And I'm strong enough to face them every meal. I am relearning to nurture and care for myself with food. I am experiencing what having food in my mouth feels like, what chewing and tasting is all about. I never was present or aware before. I did the psychological equivalent of closing my eyes and holding my nose and shoveling the food in and completing the evil deed with as much detachment. It's where survival instinct took over and it didn't matter what I ate, just that I survived. I would eat until the food tasted as disgusting as I felt. I would eat not knowing what full or hungry felt like or not know how much. Now, I am strong to choose and be aware of what goes into my mouth. I am safe. Finally, I am safe.
Love and light.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
2-22-11 grateful for today
1. A new opportunity working on my passion
2. My adorable dog
3. My car running well
4. My creative ability and talent
5. Healing
6. Unconditional love
7. Trust
8. Courage
9. Noble friends
10. My journey in life
The offer of my new career path in video production isn't on the table yet, however, there is a good possibility I will be starting a new position in the middle of March. I'm allowing myself to want this. I'm allowing myself to be excited for this change in my life in a positive direction. Change is scary. I'm making this mean a whole lot more than what it is. I'm making it mean that I will have to stay in South Florida forever. That's not true. Nothing is set down as a hard rule. I'm open to all the endless possibilities that are before me. I am in this moment and this moment is precious.
Love and light.
2. My adorable dog
3. My car running well
4. My creative ability and talent
5. Healing
6. Unconditional love
7. Trust
8. Courage
9. Noble friends
10. My journey in life
The offer of my new career path in video production isn't on the table yet, however, there is a good possibility I will be starting a new position in the middle of March. I'm allowing myself to want this. I'm allowing myself to be excited for this change in my life in a positive direction. Change is scary. I'm making this mean a whole lot more than what it is. I'm making it mean that I will have to stay in South Florida forever. That's not true. Nothing is set down as a hard rule. I'm open to all the endless possibilities that are before me. I am in this moment and this moment is precious.
Love and light.
Monday, February 21, 2011
2-21-11 grateful for today
1. A day off
2. My adorable dog
3. Openness to possibilities
4. Starting new at any time
5. Change and choosing
6. Love and compassion
7. Relaxation
8. Enjoyment of this day, this moment
9. Courage
10. My car running well
I want change and I can feel my fear of change. That choice of mine between anxiety and excitement. Changing my patterns for something new. For a new experience, for a new way to live. Life will continue. Experiences will help me grow. I trust. I trust.
Love and light.
2. My adorable dog
3. Openness to possibilities
4. Starting new at any time
5. Change and choosing
6. Love and compassion
7. Relaxation
8. Enjoyment of this day, this moment
9. Courage
10. My car running well
I want change and I can feel my fear of change. That choice of mine between anxiety and excitement. Changing my patterns for something new. For a new experience, for a new way to live. Life will continue. Experiences will help me grow. I trust. I trust.
Love and light.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
2-20-11 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Road trips visiting family and friends
4. Back home again
5. Openness to meet new people
6. Trust in my life's path
7. Trust in what is in front of me is real
8. Unconditional love
9. Divine light
10. Courage
I have a tri-county picnic to go to today. The time for me to leave is getting closer and I'm dragging my feet. This is called self-sabotage. I have certain things I need to get done before I go (like shower, and make a dish to pass) and I'm grumbling about my back hurting and not feeling like I want to go. The feeling when I am completely true, is fear. Fear of meeting new Quakers, fear of not belonging, fear of doing something new. My archenemy, doubt, has sneaked back into my consciousness and has been messing with my internal wiring. I gather my courage and shower and make a dish, and fix my didgeridoo, and I'm on my way to the picnic.
Love and light.
2. My car running well
3. Road trips visiting family and friends
4. Back home again
5. Openness to meet new people
6. Trust in my life's path
7. Trust in what is in front of me is real
8. Unconditional love
9. Divine light
10. Courage
I have a tri-county picnic to go to today. The time for me to leave is getting closer and I'm dragging my feet. This is called self-sabotage. I have certain things I need to get done before I go (like shower, and make a dish to pass) and I'm grumbling about my back hurting and not feeling like I want to go. The feeling when I am completely true, is fear. Fear of meeting new Quakers, fear of not belonging, fear of doing something new. My archenemy, doubt, has sneaked back into my consciousness and has been messing with my internal wiring. I gather my courage and shower and make a dish, and fix my didgeridoo, and I'm on my way to the picnic.
Love and light.
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