7-26-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Arfington Resorts
3.  Unconditional Love
4.  Choices
5.  Meditation
6.  My car running well
7.  Friends
8.  Family
9.  The Light
10.  Infinite space inside myself

I am anxious about more than one thing, and these same things I am excited about.  I know I am anxious because when I woke up this morning, my neck and shoulders felt like one piece of bone, like there weren't any joints in there at all.  I've been catching myself throughout the morning with my shoulders in my ears and I relax and stretch and try to let go.  I am safe.  I am going on an adventure.  I have an adventurous spirit.  I am meeting interesting and loving characters along the way.  Love and Light.

7-25-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Awareness
3.  After Effects
4.  Breathing
5.  Meditation
6.  Unconditional Love
7.  Creativity and talent
8.  Relaxation
9.  Going with the flow
10.  Vacation time

I am grateful for vacation time now.  I've been trying to stay late and make up hours so that I don't have to use it.  And I'm paying attention to myself and I know I'm done for today.  No more creativity today and I need to take care of myself.  So I'm going home and taking the vacation time that I have available to me today.  Love and Light.

7-24-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Creativity and talent
3.  Playfulness
4.  Unconditional Love
5.  Strength, Power, and Courage
6.  Choices
7.  My job
8.  My car running well
9.  The Light
10.  This day

I'm feeling good this day, right now, which is all that exists is in this moment.  I'm working extra hours to make up for leaving early for appointments.  My brain is tired and I am using After Effects to make a cool, dynamic spot that is just full of logos.  There is definitely stretch in my imagination to make something interesting to watch when I have nothing but logos.  Love and Light.

7-23-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Choices
3.  All my emotions
4.  Breathing
5.  Speaking up
6.  Adventure
7.  Creativity and Talent
8.  My car running well
9.  The Light
10.  Unconditional Love

I am Superman!!  Quite often, throughout my day, I am asked the question, "How are you?"  A lot of times these are from people I don't even know.  I used to always feel uncomfortable answering this, knowing sometimes my answer of "Fine" is not anywhere near my truth.  Also knowing that I'm not comfortable sharing with complete strangers that I am sad, or lost, or sick.  A lot of time even acquaintances don't even want to really know the true answer.  Now I know how to answer.  When I am asked, "How are you?" I respond, "I am Superman!"  Because I just discovered the incredible amounts of strength and courage I possess and owning all my strength I can get through anything I'm feeling.  I am Superman!!  Love and Light.

7-19-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog

2.  Choices

3.  My car running well

4.  Endless possibilities in every moment

5.  Awareness

6.  Unconditional love

7.  Alive today

8.  Video games

9.  Movies

10.  Friends

I have been getting stuck in making a choice and then believing I have to stick with that choice no matter what.  I think the other choice disappears and is no longer available for me to choose.  In very few unique instances this is true, and not true in the majority of life.  I forget that every time I make a choice, I can change it.  Sometimes I change it unconsciously, not knowing that I sidestepped down another path because I'm definite of the choice I made so there's not a possibility that I could even fool myself and take a misstep.  I have the opportunity every day, every moment of every day to either be my wounds or heal from them.  Love and Light.

7-18-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  My car running well
3.  This day, this moment
4.  All my emotions
5.  All parts of me
6.  Breathing
7.  Creativity and Talent
8.  Awareness
9.  Expression
10.  The Light

I don't have anything coherent to say today.  My "tornado brain" has found me again and I chose to dive into it . . . or am I making the tornado myself . . . making everything incoherent in my brain somehow serves me . . . I'm not able to hold onto any thought.  This is a time for me to live in my heart and just love my tornado brain and let it tornado itself out.  Love and Light.

7-17-13 grateful for today

1.  My adorable dog
2.  Awareness
3.  Listening
4.  Unconditional Love
5.  Understanding
6.  Breathing
7.  Understanding
8.  My car running well
9.  My life
10.  All my emotions

I'm doing better.  I feel like I'm on the edge of some big realization.  One of those things that I've heard over and over and never got, or thought I got it and now I'm on the edge of feeling it.  I now know, and feel inside, and KNOW that it is my choice to choose.  I get to choose!!  I'm choosing for me!  What exactly am I choosing?  I'm not clear on that yet, and the fog is getting thinner and thinner.  Love and Light.