1. My adorable dog
2. Cool weather
3. Sleeping well
4. Breathing
5. Choices and responsibility
6. Unconditional Love
7. Compassion
8. My car running well
9. My wonderful job
10. The Light
I become aware quite often the last couple of days of myself lost in my imagination. Imagining stories, or other possible scenarios, or some exciting or adventurous thing, of the future how my life might turn out if I did this or that, or if I was somebody else completely. I have a vivid imagination and it runs pretty much like a movie. I can imagine quite a lot with a lot of detail. I found myself in there quite a bit, and imagination is great for some things, and when I'm in it so completely that I'm disconnected from this world and only living there, it's not healthy for me. There is only today, this moment. I need to choose: to be here or in an imagined alternative. Which is real and which is illusion? Sometimes I trip myself up with that question. I get so deep in my imagination, I feel like I can't tell, or is I don't want to know? Love and Light.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
11-7-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Sacredness
3. Preciousness
4. Music
5. My car running well
6. Choices and responsibility
7. Endless possibilities in every moment
8. Friends
9. The Light
10. Unconditional Love
I don't have anything to say today. Or more accurately, I'm scared to say anything today. Love and Light.
2. Sacredness
3. Preciousness
4. Music
5. My car running well
6. Choices and responsibility
7. Endless possibilities in every moment
8. Friends
9. The Light
10. Unconditional Love
I don't have anything to say today. Or more accurately, I'm scared to say anything today. Love and Light.
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
11-6-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Breathing
4. Sleeping
5. Freedom
6. Unconditional love
7. Sacredness
8. Friends
9. My wonderful job
10. The Light
I'm ready for a nap. I left my place early today to go vote. I'm looking forward to tomorrow and no political ads running on TV. When I thought about, it seemed strange that I would have a strong urge to vote in this election. Some powerful and intense things have been going on in my life where functioning day to day seems like a huge effort or struggle. And yet, getting up early and going to vote was a strong force getting me out of bed this morning. It's also odd because I grew up in a house where political discussions never happened. My parents never vote, have never registered to vote. Maybe I use that strong urge to get me going again in other parts of my life, like doing my dishes and paying my bills. I struggle to remember to do these things, and it was no struggle to go vote. Strange. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Breathing
4. Sleeping
5. Freedom
6. Unconditional love
7. Sacredness
8. Friends
9. My wonderful job
10. The Light
I'm ready for a nap. I left my place early today to go vote. I'm looking forward to tomorrow and no political ads running on TV. When I thought about, it seemed strange that I would have a strong urge to vote in this election. Some powerful and intense things have been going on in my life where functioning day to day seems like a huge effort or struggle. And yet, getting up early and going to vote was a strong force getting me out of bed this morning. It's also odd because I grew up in a house where political discussions never happened. My parents never vote, have never registered to vote. Maybe I use that strong urge to get me going again in other parts of my life, like doing my dishes and paying my bills. I struggle to remember to do these things, and it was no struggle to go vote. Strange. Love and Light.
Monday, November 5, 2012
11-5-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My creative job
4. A new day
5. Sacredness
6. Cloud Atlas
7. Music
8. Chanting
9. Meditation
10. Flowing
There are times when stepping into the flow of life seems very scary. The current seems to be going to fast. It looks like the flow is violent and will rip me apart. Yet when I step into it, I am carried gently and the world going by doesn't look like it's going by as fast as when I'm outside looking into the flow. I forget this when I'm out of the flow. Sometimes it is my choice, like going on a long car ride, I love the feel of the car moving along, looking at the scenery flowing past. Yet after a while, I tire of the constant hum and vibration, I want to be immovable for a while. So I pull off at a rest area and walk around and sit and stop moving for a while. So that's what my life is, stepping in and out of the flow. I get stuck on the outside, because for many years it was safer to stay "outside of" and just watch. I become very scared of stepping back in, when an obstacle in my flow knocks me out of my stream. If I don't take care of myself, and step out of my stream when I need to, something will come along in my stream and knock me out. Taking care of my need in a harsher way than me choosing to step out. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. My creative job
4. A new day
5. Sacredness
6. Cloud Atlas
7. Music
8. Chanting
9. Meditation
10. Flowing
There are times when stepping into the flow of life seems very scary. The current seems to be going to fast. It looks like the flow is violent and will rip me apart. Yet when I step into it, I am carried gently and the world going by doesn't look like it's going by as fast as when I'm outside looking into the flow. I forget this when I'm out of the flow. Sometimes it is my choice, like going on a long car ride, I love the feel of the car moving along, looking at the scenery flowing past. Yet after a while, I tire of the constant hum and vibration, I want to be immovable for a while. So I pull off at a rest area and walk around and sit and stop moving for a while. So that's what my life is, stepping in and out of the flow. I get stuck on the outside, because for many years it was safer to stay "outside of" and just watch. I become very scared of stepping back in, when an obstacle in my flow knocks me out of my stream. If I don't take care of myself, and step out of my stream when I need to, something will come along in my stream and knock me out. Taking care of my need in a harsher way than me choosing to step out. Love and Light.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
11-3-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Saturday
3. Chanting
4. Meditating
5. Spiritual cleansing
6. Cool weather
7. A brand new day
8. Naps
9. Gentleness
10. Friends
I'm enjoying the quiet of my house this morning. And the coolness in the air. And the slow pace that I would like today to go in. Time and space to stop and truly consider my next choice of action. When things get too hectic or chaotic, I make fast unhealthy choices. I had a rough night last night. A lot of emotions coming up around an intense trip I took to see family a couple of weeks ago. A lot happened on many levels and I can get screwed up by jumping around and not looking or feeling closely to what I experienced. I've been writing it out, step by step, scene by scene, everything that happened. And as I'm doing that a lot of emotion that I was unable to express is coming out of me also. This blog helps also, as I write out my "blurb for the day" I am usually coming to the insight that I write about as I write it. Most of the time these posts are not planned out. Love and Light.
2. Saturday
3. Chanting
4. Meditating
5. Spiritual cleansing
6. Cool weather
7. A brand new day
8. Naps
9. Gentleness
10. Friends
I'm enjoying the quiet of my house this morning. And the coolness in the air. And the slow pace that I would like today to go in. Time and space to stop and truly consider my next choice of action. When things get too hectic or chaotic, I make fast unhealthy choices. I had a rough night last night. A lot of emotions coming up around an intense trip I took to see family a couple of weeks ago. A lot happened on many levels and I can get screwed up by jumping around and not looking or feeling closely to what I experienced. I've been writing it out, step by step, scene by scene, everything that happened. And as I'm doing that a lot of emotion that I was unable to express is coming out of me also. This blog helps also, as I write out my "blurb for the day" I am usually coming to the insight that I write about as I write it. Most of the time these posts are not planned out. Love and Light.
Friday, November 2, 2012
11-2-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful creative job
4. Breathing
5. Chanting
6. Typing
7. Meditation
9. Unconditional Love
10. Gentleness
I had a friend a couple of days ago remind me to be gentle with myself. I forget that, especially when I feel lost and scared and don't trust that I have LIGHT within me. When I'm filled with darkness. Those times I feel a need to punish myself. My friend reminded me to be gentle, and I'm able to gently let that feeling pass. Part of my punishment "habit" is that I feel I don't deserve to feel joy or happiness or excitement for life. With gentleness, I'm not going from one extreme to the other, dark punishment to light excitment, so fast that it feels violent. I gently and slowly move from darkness to the middle, where I can see the light and see the dark and gently let both touch me. Where I can see that it is my choice to move to the dark or move to light. It's restful here. Sometimes I think to just stay here in the middle . . . and that is not living either. I choose to rest, to regain a larger perspective, and I choose to be led into experiencing life fully again. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. My wonderful creative job
4. Breathing
5. Chanting
6. Typing
7. Meditation
9. Unconditional Love
10. Gentleness
I had a friend a couple of days ago remind me to be gentle with myself. I forget that, especially when I feel lost and scared and don't trust that I have LIGHT within me. When I'm filled with darkness. Those times I feel a need to punish myself. My friend reminded me to be gentle, and I'm able to gently let that feeling pass. Part of my punishment "habit" is that I feel I don't deserve to feel joy or happiness or excitement for life. With gentleness, I'm not going from one extreme to the other, dark punishment to light excitment, so fast that it feels violent. I gently and slowly move from darkness to the middle, where I can see the light and see the dark and gently let both touch me. Where I can see that it is my choice to move to the dark or move to light. It's restful here. Sometimes I think to just stay here in the middle . . . and that is not living either. I choose to rest, to regain a larger perspective, and I choose to be led into experiencing life fully again. Love and Light.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
11-1-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. A new month
3. A new day
4. Creativity and talent
5. Noble friends
6. My Truth
7. Sacredness
8. Breathing
9. Cool Weather
10. Music
I'm ready for Christmas music!! I know if I start now I will be sick of it before Christmas gets here. I am listening to some. And I hear some of you ask: What about Thanksgiving? Is there a lot of Thanksgiving music? I know of one song 'Over the River and Through the Woods'. I remember decorating for Thanksgiving, we would not have as many decorations for thanksgiving as we would for Halloween and Christmas. I would ask my Mom why we wouldn't have as many decorations and I think she would answer something like "they don't make as many decorations for Thanksgiving." What's interesting is that this blog is a daily thanksgiving and sometimes I forget that. I think of it as a chore sometimes, and a lot of times I put on the list what I want to feel grateful for that day. Today the list is all the things I already feel grateful for today. It's also interesting that I want to skip over Thanksgiving. Skip to the end. Happy New Year! Love and Light.
2. A new month
3. A new day
4. Creativity and talent
5. Noble friends
6. My Truth
7. Sacredness
8. Breathing
9. Cool Weather
10. Music
I'm ready for Christmas music!! I know if I start now I will be sick of it before Christmas gets here. I am listening to some. And I hear some of you ask: What about Thanksgiving? Is there a lot of Thanksgiving music? I know of one song 'Over the River and Through the Woods'. I remember decorating for Thanksgiving, we would not have as many decorations for thanksgiving as we would for Halloween and Christmas. I would ask my Mom why we wouldn't have as many decorations and I think she would answer something like "they don't make as many decorations for Thanksgiving." What's interesting is that this blog is a daily thanksgiving and sometimes I forget that. I think of it as a chore sometimes, and a lot of times I put on the list what I want to feel grateful for that day. Today the list is all the things I already feel grateful for today. It's also interesting that I want to skip over Thanksgiving. Skip to the end. Happy New Year! Love and Light.
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