1. My adorable dog
2. Music
3. Dancing
4. Happy Hour
5. Time to organize and cleanse
6. Unconditional Love
7. My car running well
8. Noble friends
9. Openness
10. Choices and responsibility
In most spiritual circles there is a state of being that they call "Surrender". And for most of my life I have equated this with giving up, with being powerless, with being "beat down". I now have been able to feel the difference between giving up and surrender. Surrendering is a powerful stance while giving up is a powerless stance. Children are naturally powerless, or have little power. Power comes with maturity. What's the statement? "With great power comes great responsibility." It is understandable the children have to mature and so does their power. And then there are those children who are traumatized and the development of their personal power is stunted or stopped. That's when I gave up. I gave up on life. And now I've experienced healthy surrender. Instead of shutting down, it's an opening up. Instead of letting go OF life, it's letting go TO life. This is one of those things that needs to be felt and experienced in order to understand. I could use all the words and explain it in every way possible and a person who has not experienced the difference, will not understand nor know how to do it. I send much support to those who are trying, keep working at it until you know inside. Love and Light.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
11-20-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Music
3. Dancing
4. Unconditional Love
5. My wonderful job
6. Completing projects
7. Choices and responsibility
8. My car running well
9. Creativity
10. Therapy session
I am thankful that Thanksgiving is this week and I get a day off of work. I'm looking forward to sleeping in (as much as my dog will let me). And there I go putting my mind and intention off into the future which means I am not present in this moment. How does one balance plans and preparing for events with being completely present in each moment? Do dogs plan ahead? Is my dog at home looking forward to when I'll come through the door at the end of the day? Is it in his thoughts at all? How do I plan for my day and also go with the flow? Love and Light.
2. Music
3. Dancing
4. Unconditional Love
5. My wonderful job
6. Completing projects
7. Choices and responsibility
8. My car running well
9. Creativity
10. Therapy session
I am thankful that Thanksgiving is this week and I get a day off of work. I'm looking forward to sleeping in (as much as my dog will let me). And there I go putting my mind and intention off into the future which means I am not present in this moment. How does one balance plans and preparing for events with being completely present in each moment? Do dogs plan ahead? Is my dog at home looking forward to when I'll come through the door at the end of the day? Is it in his thoughts at all? How do I plan for my day and also go with the flow? Love and Light.
Monday, November 19, 2012
11-19-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Life experiences
3. My Big Soul
4. Connectedness
5. The Light
6. My car running well
7. My wonderful job
8. PTI, FPGC, Wellness
9. All my emotions
10. Human. Love. Divine.
During a meditation on Friday, three words came to me: Human, Love, Divine. I felt it was important that they came together. That they are linked sometimes. It was over the course of the weekend that it sunk in enough for me to realize that these three things are the only things that are consistently in EVERY experience. All of them, from the joyous happy times where it is easy to see them all, to the terrifying or devastating times where I find that it is really hard to know all three are there. A lot of my experiences, I would focus on one of them and forget that the other two are there also. A lot of people get stuck only in their humanness of emotion and do not allow Love or Divine come in. I am amazed and in awe of all three connected in everything on this planet. Love and Light.
2. Life experiences
3. My Big Soul
4. Connectedness
5. The Light
6. My car running well
7. My wonderful job
8. PTI, FPGC, Wellness
9. All my emotions
10. Human. Love. Divine.
During a meditation on Friday, three words came to me: Human, Love, Divine. I felt it was important that they came together. That they are linked sometimes. It was over the course of the weekend that it sunk in enough for me to realize that these three things are the only things that are consistently in EVERY experience. All of them, from the joyous happy times where it is easy to see them all, to the terrifying or devastating times where I find that it is really hard to know all three are there. A lot of my experiences, I would focus on one of them and forget that the other two are there also. A lot of people get stuck only in their humanness of emotion and do not allow Love or Divine come in. I am amazed and in awe of all three connected in everything on this planet. Love and Light.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
11-14-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Sleeping well
3. Breathing
4. Personal Power
5. Vulnerability
6. Awareness
7. Choices and responsibility
8. My car running well
9. My wonderful job
10. Endless opportunities in every moment
Being vulnerable takes courage. I used to think being vulnerable took courage because being vulnerable was terrifying. It's funny that I feel like I want to skip this posting today because talking about vulnerability makes me vulnerable and I am uncomfortable being vulnerable. I still feel scared being vulnerable. Does everybody? Is it part of being vulnerable, being scared? I feel like it's not supposed to be so tied together. I've learned yesterday that there is a way of being vulnerable with personal power. I always thought before that being vulnerable was being powerless. There is a way of being vulnerable with power. I haven't quite got it or figured it out. I KNOW that there is a way. Love and Light.
2. Sleeping well
3. Breathing
4. Personal Power
5. Vulnerability
6. Awareness
7. Choices and responsibility
8. My car running well
9. My wonderful job
10. Endless opportunities in every moment
Being vulnerable takes courage. I used to think being vulnerable took courage because being vulnerable was terrifying. It's funny that I feel like I want to skip this posting today because talking about vulnerability makes me vulnerable and I am uncomfortable being vulnerable. I still feel scared being vulnerable. Does everybody? Is it part of being vulnerable, being scared? I feel like it's not supposed to be so tied together. I've learned yesterday that there is a way of being vulnerable with personal power. I always thought before that being vulnerable was being powerless. There is a way of being vulnerable with power. I haven't quite got it or figured it out. I KNOW that there is a way. Love and Light.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
11-13-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Walking
4. Breathing
5. Typing
6. Love
7. Light
8. Connection
9. Choices and Responsiblity
10. Gentleness
Death is closer to me lately. I lost my Grandpa last month and my very good friend lost her mom last week and my coworker lost his dog over the weekend and another good friend was at a funeral yesterday and another good friend lost one of her good friends. I've paused to think wondering if I missed any other news of deaths. And then there is new life, a coworker became a grandma last week and another good friend will be a grandma this weekend. Change, renewal, cycles. I forget these things. I get stuck in a rut and I don't know how to get out. To change is how I get out, to step through the pain of changing to something new is how I get out. There is no magic pill or magic wand. I need to change me within and without will change. Love and Light.
2. My car running well
3. Walking
4. Breathing
5. Typing
6. Love
7. Light
8. Connection
9. Choices and Responsiblity
10. Gentleness
Death is closer to me lately. I lost my Grandpa last month and my very good friend lost her mom last week and my coworker lost his dog over the weekend and another good friend was at a funeral yesterday and another good friend lost one of her good friends. I've paused to think wondering if I missed any other news of deaths. And then there is new life, a coworker became a grandma last week and another good friend will be a grandma this weekend. Change, renewal, cycles. I forget these things. I get stuck in a rut and I don't know how to get out. To change is how I get out, to step through the pain of changing to something new is how I get out. There is no magic pill or magic wand. I need to change me within and without will change. Love and Light.
Monday, November 12, 2012
11-12-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. Writing assignment
3. My car running well
4. Chanting and meditation
5. Music
6. Friends
7. Heart connection
8. Unconditional Love
9. Choices and Responsibility
10. Gentleness
I am very sore today, especially my thighs. I did the Warrior Dash on Saturday and I completed it. I feel good about that, getting all the way through it. It was harder and less harder than last year. There were a lot less walls to climb over and more barbed wire to crawl under, so that was easier. There was a wall crawl that was harder. And going over the one wall was intense for me and when I got to the bottom I cried. I had more trouble with my asthma and breathing than last year. I had to walk more. Also it was harder because I did it by myself. There weren't any friends staying at my slow pace with me like last year. Lots of strangers along the route encouraged me and helped me with some of the obstacles. A few of the obstacles I did all by myself because I was so far behind the pack. I'm grateful I did it. I kept going through it, kept putting one foot in front of the other, kept breathing the best that I could. I am now hurting a lot with my sore muscles. Love and Light.
2. Writing assignment
3. My car running well
4. Chanting and meditation
5. Music
6. Friends
7. Heart connection
8. Unconditional Love
9. Choices and Responsibility
10. Gentleness
I am very sore today, especially my thighs. I did the Warrior Dash on Saturday and I completed it. I feel good about that, getting all the way through it. It was harder and less harder than last year. There were a lot less walls to climb over and more barbed wire to crawl under, so that was easier. There was a wall crawl that was harder. And going over the one wall was intense for me and when I got to the bottom I cried. I had more trouble with my asthma and breathing than last year. I had to walk more. Also it was harder because I did it by myself. There weren't any friends staying at my slow pace with me like last year. Lots of strangers along the route encouraged me and helped me with some of the obstacles. A few of the obstacles I did all by myself because I was so far behind the pack. I'm grateful I did it. I kept going through it, kept putting one foot in front of the other, kept breathing the best that I could. I am now hurting a lot with my sore muscles. Love and Light.
Friday, November 9, 2012
11-9-12 grateful for today
1. My adorable dog
2. An open evening
3. Cool weather
4. My car running well
5. Choices and responsibility
6. Drumming
7. Music
8. Breathing
9. The Light
10. Unconditional Love
Tomorrow I am doing the Warrior Dash. I would say I'm running it, but I haven't trained except for 3 attempts at running in July or August. I'm doing it anyway. I did it last year and leaned heavily on my excuse of feeling sick for not training last year. This year I am owning and feeling all of the missed opportunities where I chose to do something other than train. I am owning all of the times I gave into my fear and did not push outside of my comfort zone. So tomorrow when I'm running (mostly walking) and tackling the obstacles I will be pondering: Is this shining my Light and showing myself the amazing capabilities I have and personal power within to accomplish this? Or am I putting myself through physical punishment in a socially acceptable way? The answer depends on what I bring with me tomorrow inside. I choose my intentions. I create the experiences to validate my new beliefs. Love and Light.
2. An open evening
3. Cool weather
4. My car running well
5. Choices and responsibility
6. Drumming
7. Music
8. Breathing
9. The Light
10. Unconditional Love
Tomorrow I am doing the Warrior Dash. I would say I'm running it, but I haven't trained except for 3 attempts at running in July or August. I'm doing it anyway. I did it last year and leaned heavily on my excuse of feeling sick for not training last year. This year I am owning and feeling all of the missed opportunities where I chose to do something other than train. I am owning all of the times I gave into my fear and did not push outside of my comfort zone. So tomorrow when I'm running (mostly walking) and tackling the obstacles I will be pondering: Is this shining my Light and showing myself the amazing capabilities I have and personal power within to accomplish this? Or am I putting myself through physical punishment in a socially acceptable way? The answer depends on what I bring with me tomorrow inside. I choose my intentions. I create the experiences to validate my new beliefs. Love and Light.
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